"The Shift"

I read a book today called "The Shift" by Taylor Johnson.  Very quick read, read it all today.  She talks about how she was overweight her whole life & what finally caused her to make the shift & change.  I will not be trying her diet because it is NOT for me or the way I want to diet but the book wasn't about her diet it was about her mental process & changes made to be successful at her diet.  Like I've said she also said any diet will work if you follow it & stick to it.  But some of the things she wrote could have been right out of my own head.
"For years, an inner voice convinced me that I didn't take care of myself because i was to busy taking care of everyone else. But now a switch has been flipped. It wasn't just that I had to lose weight for cosmetic reasons. it was deeper, truer and more powerful than that. I had to take care of my self because there was no way I could continue to take care of my family until I got rid of what was literally and metaphorically weighing me down. "

I don't have time has been my excuse for YEARS.  And just like my epiphany I had about how I would have never been upset w/ my Mom taking time to work out.  I need to take this time not just for me but for my family.  Speaking of working out I have done weight lifting twice this last week and the treadmill 3 more times since my last blog entry about the first time on the treadmill. I am very proud of that. However my weight is going up because I am not watching what I eat.

 I joined The Biggest Loser at work again and because I have tomorrow off I weighed in this afternoon and OMGosh!!  I've never seen my body produce that number on a scale.  It read 187.?   I wanted to run and hide! This is 6lbs higher than that 181.2 I got this morning.  Yes I'd eaten lunch and drank a bunch of water and also was fully clothed including jeans where this morning I'm in cotton shorts and a tank top. So I know that is why but still it gave me this horrible sinking feeling that everyone in the competition is going to see this as my starting number and my first week weight loss is going to not be accurate because I am going to wear stretch pants and a not jeans!

DH & I went on a grocery shopping date night. No kids just him & I at Winco & Fred Meyer's.  Got a ton of veggies and food to start eating healthier. I have tomorrow off and my plan is to make my list & prep foods and possibly cook/prepare meals if I can. Next week DH starts his swing shift and I will be on my own for dinner.

I keep on toying w/ the idea of joining WW again but just so I don't have to count calories but I would have to count points....... I don't know.  My computer battery is about to die so I will blog more tomorrow about if I go w/ counting calories or if I am going to dig out my WW set I have still from last time I joined.