Two entries in less than 24 hrs

Well It is 2:15AM and I am up my mind running a million miles a minute.  I can't sleep.
However I am feeling empowered!  I've been thinking & thinking, googling & googling.  Trying to figure out what my next step is.  I looked up LA Weight Loss at home, Weight Watchers, Medifast, and I am going to go w/ DH's advice and go w/ simple math.  I am going to charge my body bug and keep my Jillianmichaels.com membership that works w/ the body bug active. Getting new batteries in my heart rate watch. And I am simply going to go w/ counting calories.  I will treat myself on gym days w/ a candy bar. Planning on 2-3 trips to the gym a week and 2-3 days of cardio at home (totaling 5 days).  So the gym will just be weights.  I want to get an elliptical in my living room but the house is a little small.  I know I can do this!  I am working on a accountability plan w/ DH.  I am going to have a calendar up in the bathroom where I need to mark a happy face or a sad face. If the task was complete a happy face :-) if it wasn't completed that day a sad face :-(

Then DH can see what I am doing well or not doing well. I am thinking of also giving him my log in info so he can check up on me from time to time.  I also want to weigh in backwards so I can't see my progress and have him only tell me when I reach 5%, 10% etc....  I haven't discussed all the details yet w/ him but I am going to ask him to not stop or give up on it.  I need someone to say keep going & I have to promise myself not to get mad at him cause it isn't going to be easy but I need to keep moving forward!!  My goal is after a month it will be habit & then I won't need to constant accountability and he can back down but I need someone pushing me for the first month.  When my Dad was my trainer he forced me to work out even when I didn't want to & I got pissed off at him every now & then. I am planing on going to the gym after work on Mondays & Thursday's and then it depends on the Saturday.  DH has to get his bike rides in to prepare for the STP this year but if it is raining in the morning I can go to the gym. If it is just planned this is when I go to the gym it won't be about finding time or worrying about what if something else is going on, that will be what is going on.

I still need to make myself plan my meals well so that I can not be starving from over eating for one meal.  That is where I tend to mess up is the fact that I eat allot in the morning & say Oh I'll just eat a small dinner but come dinner time I am starving & then I want a snack & I over ear then.  Anyways, Lots of planning, charts making in the next few days. Then hunger, sweat & tears in the next few weeks but it'll be worth it.  the jillianmicahels.com says I need to be less than my current goal weight of 125. They website says my max weight should be 115. I haven't been that since my little anorexic spell in High School. So I told DH that it isn't even possible. He is so determined that I can do it no problem. He has such faith & belief in me and that is why I need him to be my accountability partner because I need someone who has no doubt in their minds. And he says he knows I can do it and he claims do it better than I ever expected to. He has known me for a very long time & knows my athletic spirit, how much I enjoy being sore from working out and he has seen me lose before w/o working out. His faith in my ability to do this is really motivating.  Love you so much Babe. Thanks for believing in me.