Competitive....

I have always been extremely competitive.  Now it hides under the surface because my feeling of being inadequate keeps it at bay. Today my Brother & SIL stopped by and announced that they've decided to do the STP.  I think I told you that my BFF was making me do it w/ her. Well that has since changed because they decided not to do it. So I figured I'm off the hook I'll let DH & his friend do it in one day. Anyways, so today when the announced what they were doing I felt that competitive tug.  I thought to my self I can't let them do it and not do it.  I felt motivation to start dieting & working out.  However I don't really have a desire to ride the STP at this point. I much rather run the Disneyland 1/2 Marathon & the Warrior Dash. We are already registered for the Warrior Dash too. Registration for the Disneyland 1/2 Marathon is this month but we still don't have a room and I was only going to register if we got a room.  I miss being competitive and the rush that comes with it.  It makes me want to lose my weight and try to hide it and not tell anyone. Makes me think I can do this on my own.  God will be my partner & DH is very supportive.   I have enough food in the house to start my diet tomorrow.  Not just the diet I do think I need to force my self to complete the cleanse.  I am nervous but it is time for me to take action.  Wish me luck.