Everyone has the answer….

Everyone is always claiming they have the magic cure the perfect plan to help you lose weight. My Cousin just started selling a new program I've never heard of.  The 3 main ones right now all include a cleanse,  protein shake, vitamins & a similar diet plan.  What kills me is the fact that they all say were the best and you know what makes a diet plan work? It is simply sticking to it.  I mean I don't care what diet plan you on are if your sticking to it. That is why I can't quit. I have to keep going. Everything in me says that if I don't stop this will work because it is formulated to work.  I had planned on getting an early start to tomorrow; reading my devotions then right to my C25K and so weight training for my upper body, but now I am babysitting. So I really should get up at 7AM and get it done before they get here at 8AM. I even got my work out clothes ready to go. I am super frustrated w/ food right now.  I don't know how I am going to keep this under control. I am over 21 days on WW but in that week where I am frustrated from lack of results and I'm coming off of a big binge from eating almost all my weekly points in 2 days. It is a hard habit to stop. I need to divide it up evenly so I get an extra 7 points every day so that I am getting that little bit extra but not over eating a bunch. I might be in the negative when I calculate all my points for the day. :-/  I am just confused as to why I go thru this at 3 weeks. This is my MO this is what have done when I've reached the dread uneventful week 3.  I over eat until I get so frustrated I quit.  I need to press through maybe week 4 is my magic week but after I have eaten like crazy for the last 3 days I don't know if it can be.  I may go back to there simple plan I didn't feel deprived on that but I was cooking everyday.  I need to cook food, not eat out and be good w/ my points. I can do this! I need to do this!!

I was just looking through pics & I found one that makes me sigh I so want to look like this again and I wasn't even in shape, fit or at my goal weight. This is after my success w/ LA weight loss & I had hit 140 the day before we left for Disneyland.

Sept 2007 140 lbs

This picture just makes me sick.  I mean not like UGH look at me, but a Oh my goodness I lost all that weight & gained it all back.  I've got to keep going I have to press on. Sorry but I need to keep this positive self talk going to help get me there.