Well we are back. Vacation was great and I wish it didn't have to come to an end. On Vacation at the happiest place on earth my only focus is to have fun and create memories w/ my family. If having fun includes eating wrench fries or a caramel apple, so be it. While on vacation I went for a couple walks early in the morning to get things that we may need for the day. One morning I saw a women, who I assumed was a Mom, Leaving the onsite gym after a workout. And I thought I want to be like that, so dedicated to my health that I get up before my family and workout.
Thursday morning as I was looking out at our amazing view form our hotel room I let out a big sigh. DH commented and said are you sighing over there? I told him yes because now I have to go back to the real world. He laughed and said oh poor you. I then elaborated that now I have to go back to the world where I need to make a decision on how I am going to lose weight. I wore my fit bit the whole trip and found out that in the 5 days we were on vacation we walked 30 miles. I ask didn't over eat so I was hopeful that I'd come home and kind of have a jump start on my diet. But nope the day we left for vacation I was 178.x and today I was 180.0. How an I gain 2 lbs while I am not over eating and walking 30 miles??? I just don't know. My Hips didn't hurt w/ all the walking and I thought for sure it must have lost something to keep the pain away.
SO here I am vacation is over and I'm right back where I was w/ no game plan and just as frazzled as ever. This weekend is crazy busy but I want to be prepared to start something on Monday. But what? I still have the same ole same ole choices in mind: Calorie counting/tracking, Weight Watchers, Advocare 24 Day challenge, Carb Cycling, LA weight loss. I was telling DH that I can't seem to fix me and I don't know what to do. Then we have the same old song and dance about how no one can help me but me. And I know it is just God and I in this battle. I pray for help and I know He is there and trying to help me. I know everything I think twice about eating something that is Him. And then I choose to ignore it and eat the crap anyways.
Am I wrong to think I need to be excited about a diet plan to be successful at it? Maybe I need to approach a diet as a fact that I am going to be fairly miserable for the first month. But OK so I decide to be miserable what diet should I follow. I've been looking at the LA weight loss plans I have and I like the idea of doing there Juice jump start for two days. I need to figure this out so I can make meal plans and go grocery shopping. *sigh*
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