Restless tonight….

Today was a very LONG day. Horrible trip to the walk in clinic w/ both my boys. All is well and I am not going to repeat it but I just need a do over today. And by today I mean yesterday cause it is now after 1:00AM.

Anyways, I survived both days of juicing. I didn't drink the whole juice drink but I didn't have any starch for those two days. But I didn't get in all my water. I realize I don't think I gave my weigh in on the day I started.  It was 179.8 and this morning I weighed in at 177.8 so 2 lbs in 2 days is a good thing.  Tomorrow we (DH & I)  are suppose to go for a bike ride w/ my BFF & her DH. So at first I thought this is a good thing I need to focus on my health and I did sign up for that triathlon so a bike ride yay. Well today BFF's DH calls my DH and talks to him about how he doesn't want to go to the gym after our 24 mile ride. My BFF & I thought a stop at the gym for a swim would be a good idea for more triathlon stuff. Anyways, so he calls and all I hear is DH's side and he is yeah…..OK…….That sounds good. I'll let Crystal know.  Well I guess then invited a couple more people to join us tomorrow both are pretty great bikers. So after the day I've had this was just icing on the cake.  I already feel like crap because I feel like I am cheating them out of a ride by inviting myself along w/ them. We talked about going for a ride on Vashon Island but it has 2200 ft of elevation gain and I said I can't do that. DH is doing a ride w/ his main riding buddy on Sunday on Camano Island & I also found out that my BFF & her DH are doing the Vashon ride on Sunday.  So this made me feel even worse about our ride tomorrow.  I feel like it is a pity the fat girl ride and it is one thing to have an asthma attack and be in my spandex in front of people that love me, but now we are riding w/ people that I don't really know that well or at all.  So I REALLY don't want to go now.  I feel like well there is enough people there for them all to go on a ride and not have to pity me.  DH keeps saying, you'll be fine.  I am just basing this all on the facts of how out of shape I am, and how much everyone else has been riding to prep for the STP.  

SO long story short…. I am having a pity party and not sure what to do about it.  I so want to just say enjoy your ride catch you at the movies tomorrow night.  But I know there is no way my DH would let me sit this out.