Not feeling guilty

This morning my scale had a number on it I had not seen in a long time. I was pretty excited and I am hoping the downward trend will continue until weigh in next week. I had a goal to be in the 160's by Thanksgiving and I don't care if it is 169.9 I want to be in the 160's.  I haven't been able to lose weight to get into the range in 3 years!  I planned out my points for the day and then the day when awry.   Due to a change in plans cooking dinner was out of the question and the restaurant of choice for the boys was Red Robin. I thought no problem I can get a burger with out a bun and be good. I spent a good half hour before we left calculating points and trying to figure out what I could eat.  My go to items I order that I thought was safe end up way higher than I expected in points.  My favorite Crispy chicken salad is 32 points and that is w/o cheese or bread.  My chicken burger with out a bun is 12 and that is just for the burger, no side salad.  I finally found a salad for 6 points.  It is called the Simply Grilled chicken salad.  I took off the cheese and croutons and it comes up to 6 points. Add an extra point or two for dressing I keep on the side and dip my fork into. When we got there I smelled all the food and I really am tempted to get the fried zucchini appetizer which is only 6 points as well, but I was worried that I would be very hungry later and then dip into negative points because I was so hungry.  I decided to be good and order my salad. It was good, I was full and I didn't have a hit of guilt afterwards.

My eating has surrounded by guilt for a very long time. I feel depressed, upset, frustrated, sad, happy so I eat junk food then I feel guilting and that guilt makes me feel bad and so I repeat my cycle.  I told my hubby that I am full & not full of guilt.  My hubby told me he was proud that I stuck to it when I didn't want to.  I managed to not even eat one fry.  I even touched one twice but both times made the choice to not partake. Feeling really hopeful this week and not doing to shabby either.