Changing punish to blessed

"Change happens the pain of staying the same is greater than the pain of change."  This quote rings true over and over again. This morning as I struggled to find something to wear that fit ok and wasn't to tight, I was reminded of this quote.  Has my pain of staying the same finally greater than the pain of change? That says allot because I really don't like change. However now almost 2 months into my meds I am able to keep my logic about me and my emotions in check. So that should take care of the emotional eating. Now it is just taking down the stubbornness inside that feels like this is a punishment. Like I said yesterday I do have to do the time for the crimes of eating crap all these years, however punishment by definition is something that makes someone suffer. To say that I am suffering because I am eating healthy is ridiculous! I a blessed to be able to eat healthy. Blessed to be able to afford healthy foods, blessed to have easy access to these foods. I am blessed to be able to run and work out.  Changing the word punishment to blessed is quite powerful.

This morning I was asking myself: What am I willing to do to lose weight?

Am I willing to give up fast food?
                                 Yes
Am I willing to give up candy?
                                 Yes
Am I willing to track what I eat?
                                  Yes

Simply tracking my foods means I am keeping w/ in my points which EVERY TIME I start weight watchers I write about how I can't believe it works and how it doesn't feel like dieting. (see previous blog posts HERE & HERE) And yet I rebel and it is always because I resort to fat food or candy.  If you look at the next couple blog posts after my pervious success on WW they start talking about lacking of tracking, I ate a few extra points this week, I didn't measure my food, etc…. Even with the holidays approaching I know that WW is totally doable . I will not be abel to attend my meeting this week because my work schedule was changed due to the holiday. So I am going to find my tracking notebook and start tracking tomorrow. I don't think I am going to do the simple start but I need to start measuring & tracking. I know what to do and the pain of staying the same is just to much lately.