For the last 8 days we have been a household full of sickies. DS2 had a fever for 5 days, had to bring him to the Dr. twice, got him on meds. And this whole time while I am not as sick as my little boy, I am sick and I am tired ALL the time!!! I just feel like I can't get anything accomplished. I haven't worked out at all, I haven't used my new weight bench yet. DH & I went out for our Valentines Day Date and I was kind of in a funk the whole time. I felt bad for DH. He kept on asking me if I was enjoying our time & of course I was but my brain wasn't there. He asked me what was on my mind and I told him it is the same, my weight and every time we go out I vent and then never make any progress so I feel like it is stupid to talk about it again. I have motivation to work out and now that it is so easy to do in my home it's great.
We leave for our vacation in 3 weeks I have to get my drivers license renewed before then. And as stupid as it sounds I am depressed about the DL photo. I told DH that it just all seems so daunting and overwhelming. How do I replace the high food gives me? How do I get through the first month of dieting to make this my new habit and destroy the old one? I need to stick to the schedule so I can keep myself prepared because that is my biggest struggle. I am having a very difficult evening, feeling very down and still sick from this upper respiratory flu. I have to force myself to do this. Some way Some how.
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