Sick again.....

I can not believe this but I am sick again. With this horrible cold thing is just kicking my butt. The sinus pressure is downright painful.  I did a small work out on Saturday I wasn't feeling 100% but I did it anyway and they Sunday I was hit hard.   We leave for vacation in only 12 days and I am just praying my youngest & DH doesn't get this like my oldest & I did.   I am not doing well on trying to eat no fast food etc.  I am still stuck in this horrible thing where I eat out when ever DH is working nights & then when he is home we are going out to eat it is a viscous cycle.

My Mom is down almost 19 lbs and she was bummed that she only lost 2 lbs this week and to try to cheer her up I told her well I am gaining & your less than 10 lbs away from what I weigh so that should make you happy. And she told me that she has been stressing about it. She is worried about how it will effect me.  Keep in mind although I did say something about it on my blog this blog is still unpublished at this point in time and there is no way she could have known what I said cause I would never say it to her face. Because it is more important that she is losing weight and getting healthy than if I become larger than her. I need her healthy and around for a long time.

Everyone agrees that I should wait until after vacation to start dieting but here I am still sitting and going back and forth on what plan to do & how to give myself the push I need. Do I try the whole Advocare 24 day challenge because I believe in their products? Do I break down & order the LA weight loss at home so I have chocolate? Carb cycling, Weight Watchers, counting calories?????  Like I have said before, I know if I did any of them consistently I would succeed. But which one is the one that I am going to stick w/ and does it even really matter??   My Mom and I were talking about how much we had obessing over food. It is all I think about dieting or not.  And she said w/ Medifast she was able to take it off her mind and that is what she needed. I need that too but I really want to avoid processed food full of soy.  I want to eat real food. That is why I circle around the other options over and over again. All of them have me eating 1200-1500 calories a day but they all feel like such different methods. I have lose weight calorie counting and w/ LA weight loss. I have never stuck to the advocare plan but love the way the vitamins make me feel.  If I am going to order something I need it to be here and good to go by the time I get back from vacation.  So I have to decide super soon. The idea of counting calories drives me mad. *SIGH*