Weigh in this morning 178.2. Been stuffing my face & eating even after I am so full I shouldn't be eating anymore. Feeling very uncomfortable, unattractive, anxiety, worry
So after all my thinking & soul searching I keep coming back to the same things.....
Focus on Healthy/Fitness not weight loss
Getting up early (which I hate)
Meal Planning
prepping
tracking
Time management
Focust on Health/Fitness not weight loss: I've talked about this allot lately and it makes a big difference in my brain. The scale only seems to be able to ruin me. If I do well I think I deserve a splurge & if I do poorly I think well screw it! If my focus is on being healthy, feeling better & getting in shape. It really makes me think before I eat something. I may need to really stick to not weighing in except having DH do it on his day off and only tell me every 10 or 5 lbs. Or I need to not weight every morning at least. I need to not be addicted and only weigh in once a week.
Getting up early: I HATE getting up early. My body doesn't like it. I am a night owl and I enjoy that but honestly one of my biggest things about working out is I don't want to take time away from my family and I need to get up at 6:30AM do my devotions & work out, shower get the boys up & ready for school. Then I am done working out & the boys were sleeping & no time loss from family.
Meal Planning: This needs to take place on the weekends. Plan for one week at a time. This keeps me on track during the week for not eating out which is all I've been doing lately. Ultimately I would love to have each our of common meals we eat on a recipe & the cost of the ingredients so I know that this meal cost me $_____.
Prepping: After meal planning and shopping I need to prep my food for lunches that week. Cut up & bag fruits & veggies for easy snacks & lunches. Packing my lunch at night when I work. Finding & setting out work out clothes the night before along w/ clothes for the kids & I. Or I just need to keep laundry done & put away then everyone can get there own clothes. :-)
Tracking: If I eat it I need to track it. If I track my weight & calories I lose weight, If I don't track I don't lose. Pure and simple
Time Management: I need to set & adhere to a schedule that includes time for the things I want to do like read w/ the boys & date nights, but also need time for the working out & lunch packing, laundry & stuff I don't like doing. This way I make sure I am doing the things I need to do that when I am suppose to so that I don't put them off so that I can do the fun stuff later. I will have time for the fun stuff and then I'll now I don't need to worry about doing the fun stuff now because I know there will be time for it later and I can get don't what I don't want to do. Most of this proves that I can do all this stuff while the boys are in bed either in the morning or at night after they go to bed. SO really I am just taking away sleeping in time in the morning & Facebook time at night. Honestly I should be able to sacrifice those things. And I am hoping if I am up earlier and the boys are on a good schedule they will go to sleep better meaning I can go to bed earlier too.
So what will this look like??? Making a meal plan once a week, go grocery shopping based on the meal plan, come home cut up fruit & veggies, if possible prepack snacks and lunch foods. After kids go to bed pick out clothes set out work out clothes & pack my lunch & snacks. In the morning get up by 6:30AM have my devotions, work out, shower, get the boys up and dressed and get Noah off to school. Is this doable?? YES! So why does the whole idea of it freak me out? Is it rebellion? Is it fear?
This plan really requires a more organized bed time as well for my boys so that I can get them asleep earlier so I can go to bed earlier. I have always been a night owl and really don't like the idea of going to bed early. HOWEVER, I think if I was getting up earlier then it wouldn't be so hard to go to bed early especially if I was going to bed w/ DH. He has to work a crazy shift for the next 3 months. He will be swing shift next week but then he starts 6AM-6PM shift so he needs to go to bed at a reasonable time so 10PM would work. The idea of trying to fix/fine tune the boys bed time routine doesn't sound fun to me.
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