How to begin?

I spent all of Halloween night cleaning my office so that my treadmill would be usable. Got up this morning and packed my lunch and snacks. Then the attack of the left over Halloween candy and I picked up Taco Time for dinner. I am feeling really low. My self esteem is horrible, I am getting paranoid because of it.  My body is starting w/ the pins & needles & my heart burn has returned. Weigh in this morning was at 179.  

So now that I have a formula for weight loss, How do you begin your journey?  Most weight loss programs start w/ a Jump start, fast forward, boost, cleanse..... Something that cleanses your system, gets you going some quick results.  DH says you just start slowly by taking some stuff out of your diet and starting working out. I told him that isn't how it works for me. He has this amazing ability to eat ok every now and then & lose weight then go back to eating what ever he wants & maintain.  My body has been on to many ups & downs, to many diets I jump from one extreme to the other & I need to be consistently staying in my calories to lose.  My Mom & I were talking about going to a nutritionist but I know that counting calories works for me I just don't enjoy doing it.  Tomorrow we are going out to dinner for my Dad's Birthday & then Sunday we are having spaghetti at DH parents for his Dad's b-day & that isn't diet food.  So I get frustrated & feel like I can't get started. So how do I get started. Do I try a cleanse again or just start counting calories?