Tomorrow never comes & Yesterday is in the past. We only ever have today. So the old adage of I'll do that tomorrow doesn't work. This morning I hit guess what a new high, 180.2! O_O That is .2 lbs heavier than 9 months pregnant w/ DS2. I mean really????? I knew I took a I don't give a crap attitude this last week but that means I gained almost 5 lbs in 6 days. Realizing my quick weight gain also made me realize that last time I was up close to this I hurt my back as well. So it is my weight that is causing my pain.
I started writing this post on Wednesday & it is now Sunday. So I don't know what my weight is right now I haven't weighed my self in a few days. My Mom just purchased & started the "food lovers diet" she is down 6 lbs in 3 days they say they are doing a metabolism reset and the stress the importance of eating balanced meals & eating ever 2 hrs. She thought for sure she had eaten so much yesterday that there was NO WAY she was going to lose weight & she still did. It makes me laugh cause every diet program will work if you stick to it & all of them are basically counting calories, eating the right kind of foods & eating several times a day. Again it all comes down to the fact that I know what do. My Mom says well you know sometimes it just helps to have a system to follow.
Total Praise report!! Starting Wednesday I woke up in a good mood and I thought cool how great is this?!?! Stepped on the scale and saw 180.2 and didn't get depressed. Realized well that sucks but had this well it's ok feeling because I am going to change. Have been in an AMAZING mood everyday since. I mean like this is me. This is the me I used to be or when I am on a great level dose of meds. I am completely med free. Been off of them for about 3 weeks now & it can take that long for them to completely leave your system so I mean I am free of all meds in my system at all. I asked DH if he had been drugging me because I am doing so great. He said no & that God is just answering prayer. I've been praising Him for my wonderful mood & attitude. It is all from God!!! I have new found energy and motivation. I am more patient w/ my kids & because of that being more affectionate & they are responding by behaving better. I mean it is great. When you have depression you wake up & kinda wait to see what mood is there to great you and if the cloud is still there. And the cloud is GONE!! I wake up in a good mood not in a haze. SO PRIASE GOD!!!
Tomorrow starts my new schedule of M, T, FR 9-5:30. So if I get up at 7AM like I have been to get to work at 8 that gives me 1 1/2 or so to work out, shower, do my make up, pack my lunch & eat breakfast. I mean I will be starting my days off right. I have always had an hr lunch and now it is only 1/2 hr so I have to pack a lunch. Which should help me w/ my eating healthier. Going to charge the body bugg and see what kind of damage I can do in the next 16 days before our trip to Cannon Beach for our 10 year anniversary. My plan is to not waiver. Stick to my calories & making sure my calorie deficit is at least 1000 a day. If I can do this until our trip than we I will be able to treat myself a little on our trip while sticking to my calories. Planning on brining work out clothes even w/ me to the beach cause we are only 5 weeks from our mud run & I have to keep moving.
Lots of changes coming in our way and they will all be for the good even if they bring some stress. I am choosing to focus on the positives that will come after it!! :-D
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