Hunger Games....

As I can't seem to control my eating I am finding my self gaining weight. This evening I am coming in at 181.?  We'll see what tomorrow morning brings.  I made a funny talking to my Mom today. I said call me Fatniss & we need to start me on some Hunger Games. LOL!! I made my self laugh allot.

Anyways back to the real problems.   I am 2 weeks from my Anniversary trip w/ DH. This Friday is our 10 year Wedding Anniversary.  I got a tripod & a remote for my DSLR so I can try to take my own pics on our Anniversary trip but I would still love to lose like 10 lbs before then just to give me that confident feeling.  People are asking if I am training yet for my mud run and my SIL wants someone that will be behind me during the run to film me w/ the go pro because she thinks it will be so funny.  Some people are shocked that I agreed to do this & they laugh at me.  I want to kick this Warrior Dash's ass.  I want to Kill it!!!!  Yet I sit and do nothing.

I am in such a great place & my depression still gone but I can't stop sticking stuff that is bad for me in my mouth.   My Mom is now 8 lbs from her diet.  I told DH & he said well maybe you should try that how much is it.  And I pushed against the suggestion.  I want to do this on my own, I know what to do, what to eat, how often to eat, how many calories to eat. What is stopping me?? It is hard work and it all comes down to laziness. I will continue to rebuke the spirit of laziness!!! I need to add that back to my prayers every morning.  Lots of changes coming. DH is probably going to get that job & that means 7 days on(3/12's & 4/10's) then 7 days off. Our whole dynamic & schedule as a family will have to make some changes but I feel like this is what God has had us waiting for.