I mean I always knew I would find yoga difficult I tried it once when I wasn't as large as I am but MAN! I did my 20 mins on the elliptical this morning & then decided to try my new Jillian Yoga DVD. I couldn't complete it. It said I was following the beginner person and it was only 30 mins but I swear it was longer than 30 mins and that you can't do that w/o some knowledge of what your are doing. My boys wanted to do it w/ me so while I was taking breathers they took turns using my mat. It was very cute. Tomorrow I am not sure what I will do. I have another new Jillian DVD of kickboxing & I think I may put that in. I mean activity is activity. I really should be wearing my body bug so I can see what kind of calories I am burning.
I am thinking about ditching pop & chocolate again. I think I need not to ditch diet pop but all pop and see what happens. I have a ton of Crystal Light packages which do have nutra sweet in it as well but I don't crave sweets when I drink those. I so desperately want to be healthy. I am so done w/ all the issues I am having being this large. So tired of clothing not fitting me and of my tummy & my boobs sticking out as much as the other does. I have big boobs, always have, and they have always helped make my stomach look smaller but not anymore. Still lots of changes going on and not all of them are figured out. The change does bring on stress and the desire to eat to release the happy hormones in my brain to make the stress go away for just a little bit.
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