You can never make the same mistake twice.....

It's been a while since I've posted and yet I have 5 blog post I've started and not finished. I've been on quite the roller coaster lately. Since our 10K my pain has been persistent and debilitating.  My Chiropractor thinks it is a Tibialis anterior strain but after taking the 3 days of rest and he recommended and then getting back on my treadmill for my 30 min run today and it was still hard. Tomorrow I have a apt with an Orthopedic to check for a stress fracture.  I am terrified to go to this appointment. What if it is a stress fracture, what if it isn't??  If it isn't a stress fracture that means the fix is just super simple: steady & consistent training.  I really been wanting to join a gym again even though I would not be running at the gym I miss my weight training and enjoy the weight machines that make you use only the muscles your working.  So I tried to take hubby gym shopping and we went to the LA Fitness by our house and didn't like it. We really like our old gym even though it is not close.  After about another week of talking about it with hubby last night we went and rejoined our favorite gym: Anytime Fitness. I have worked up a pretty structured schedule and discussed it with hubby and we have agreed that it is super doable but it is going to take a lot of adjusting away from our laziness, mainly mine.  This schedule has me getting up early only one day a week. The rest of the time it is up at 7 and that is what I do now.  I will be going to the gym M, W & F right after work and home by 4:14 to start the rest of my plan that includes: homework, laundry, dinner & getting everything ready for the next day and be ready to sit on my butt from 7:30PM on. So honestly I am still allowing myself ample lazy time.

There are 720 minutes in a day, are you worth 60 minutes ? That is only 1/12th of them.  We all have that gut response of yes of course I am. 1 hour out of 24 isn't asking to much.  I tell myself I like my free time and that I am afraid to be to busy but keeping to this new schedule I will have the evenings free and with out the stress that I should be doing other things because those things will be done already. Going to the gym not only will add health to my life but it will help me keep this new schedule adding structure to my boys lives. Right now my days are just full of waiting: waiting for the work day to be over, waiting for hubby to get home, waiting for the kids bed time. Waiting is exhausting!!! It makes me cranky and depressed. If I fill my day with purpose, how much better off would EVERYONE be?

I came across a this quote and it was I've know this is true for quite some time.

Everyday it is our choices that make us who were are, not our circumstance.