"Running Like A Girl: Notes on Learning to Run"

I got a new book the other day called "Running Like A Girl: Notes on Learning to Run" Amazon recommended it, it peaked my interest, so I pressed the buy w/ 1-click button.  (evil button)  I just finished the first part all about her journey and running.  I really enjoyed it! It had me smiling, giggling, gasping & feeling a lump in my throat.  I recommend it.  One of the things I found so shocking and wonderful in the this book all a the same time (SPOILERS AHEAD) was that after her first Marathon was that after that she stops running all together and feels like it was a fad in her life.  She gets back to running but this happens 3 more times in the book.  She found running again and again until she finally figured out why she truly ran. (SPOILERS DONE)

Since my injury I have had the hardest time getting back on the treadmill.  I did that one run the other day that was interrupted and my back has been a little sore since I tried. So now I am afraid of trying again, realizing that I may have waited the full two weeks like the Dr said and that would have been yesterday.  Since I've stopped running the motivation for dieting has stopped as well. It is like it is a package deal in my brain for some reason.  You would think Oh I can't work out I would focus hard on my eating right so I can still lose. Especially since I've changed my goal to only 1.25 loss a week.  And with the STP this weekend DH's training has had a peak in the last month. I am a bicycle widow this part of the year and the other night I was so frustrated that I told him it makes me not want to run at all. I told him if my training is going to do tis to him than I want no part of it. I know how it makes me feel and I will NOT do this to my family.  I then try to talk my self back into the idea of it all because my goal is to run my half marathon in 3 hrs or a little less. And if I am taking 3 hrs in the early mornings on Saturdays for like the last 7 week sod training. That isn't that bad but I need to make sure I get my butt up early so that I am not causing my family to be w/o me at night.

Right now I am struggling too because it is VERY warm here. This weekend DH is riding the STP in 90 degrees and normally we are  in the low 70's at best.  And they were planning on doing it in one day this year but it will depend on if the heat allows them too. How do I run when it is to warm to run? Get up early and do it is how.  Mornings need to become my friend.  I need to find a way to crave the morning.  I need to enjoy my quiet time and treadmill time. I can't go for a run outside because my DH is at work and kids are sleeping but I could get up and do my half hour C25K in the morning, shower, the have breakfast and devotions.  I don't even have to get up that early to pull all this off because I don't have to be to work until 9AM and starting in Aug I have a 10AM start but in Sept that will include getting the boys off to school too.

I have remained off of Diet Pepsi and Chocolate but just barely. I have come to the conclusion not once, not twice but three times that I was going to have Diet Pepsi again and each time something has happened to foil my plans.  I should take that as a sign that this is really something I need to continue doing. I am still drinking normal pop when I need a carbonated drink and that is part of the problem. I get frustrated that I am drinking calories and that I don't find that they taste as good as Diet Pepsi.  With STP weekend fast approaching and the fact that we are going to the beach a few weeks after that I am feeling like I want to postpone getting back at the diet and running. But I shouldn't, I have a 5K I was going to do on July 18th in two weeks and I don't feel ready for it.  I don't have a sitter yet for it either. I think that is really want is delaying my focus, the fact that I might not be able to do that one at all.

When it all comes down to it I was enjoying the accomplishment I felt of completing my training.  I need to get back to that I haven't found the runners high so to speak but I do know other things change when I am training. I feel more confident, I don't eat as much junk, I drink more water.  These are reasons alone to put my running shoes back on after almost 4 weeks since my last real run.  *GULP* Alarm is set to get up and run tomorrow. Praying God helps get me up to accomplish this.