Crying in the dark

So frustrated I am trying to hold back the tears as I lie here in bed. Another day down the tubes I expect to back to my start weight tomorrow or at least I will have a gain. And Thanksgiving only a couple days away. *Sigh*. My family has come down with some new cold and w/ the DS1 athsma I get super stressed everytime he gets a cold. I feel like eating right should be easier! Why do the other foods have such a strong hold over me? DH made dinner tonight and it isn't that I don't appreciates it but what he made isn't on anyone's diet.... Hamburger Helper. So I ate it and thought well there went today and ate a bad snack too. So I get all worked up and start to panic about the family pictures and how frustrated I am w/ being in healthy and overweight. It is that time of the month and I am dying for sweets but have yet to have a candy bar. Last Friday I did have some raisinets but that is it so I guess it is good for me that I've have the focus to not purchase chocolate or candy for the most part and this includeds the fact that we went to a movie.  I need to give up diet pop but I like the fact that it is calorie free and it is hard to giv up when I am counting calories. I asked for a sod stream for Christmas and my parents are getting me one. I was to try some of the natural flavors and hopefully being able to fizz water and put any flavor in it will help me stay off diet pop but also keep me from the high calorie regular pop too.