What are you lacking???

As I am still trying to figure out why I can't stop eating junk. I go over and over what is the missing piece.  I have set small attainable goals w/  exciting rewards. I have them written out and out in front of me everywhere I go, my car, bathroom, kitchen & work. I am doing everything "they" say you need to do to be successful.  Then I started thinking what am I lacking?  I have an incredible desire to lose the weight and I truly have the skills & ability to do it. So then it comes down to will power right?  

Willpower:

Personal Character

• Self-discipline, training and control of oneself and one's conduct, usually for personal improvement
• Self-control, the ability of a person to exert his/her will over the inhibitions of their body or self

Now looking at that definition I am realizing willpower isn't just something you can find or have. It takes time to build a personal character trait.  It takes training & discipline. So if it takes training & discipline to gain willpower? It comes down to lacking willingness.  You think I want it, I know how to do it but it all comes down NOT to willpower but the willingness to change.  The willingness to put the fork down. The willingness to change.  I have always resisted change and it seems to be the one thing you can't get away from. lol! I've been told my whole life that I don't handle change well & I need to be careful & not take to much on.  So I find this as my excuse for almost everything. Knowing that if I don't change then it's not worth it & I can't take on to much change cause then I will fail, etc.... 

Willingness:

Adjective

• Ready, Eager, or ready to do something
• Cheerful compliance

Now Willingness is an action which sounds allot easier for me to get right away and then in time the Willpower will come thanks to the training & discipline I will develop. So I have to go on every day forward knowing that my lake of success isn't based on my lack of ability but simply because I am not willing. Maybe that will help me change my mind set.