Need to change my focus (written on 6/13/13)

Well This morning I woke up in a pretty good mood, feeling positive that I was going to succeed today. Then on my way to work I realized I forgot my meds, vitamins & breakfast. And in a millisecond my mood changed from a positive I can do it outlook to: Do I have time to pick up donuts on my way to work? I mean really instantly went into I failed & Oh well, screw it mode.

In that very second all my stress & weight hits me again. And then in the midst of it all I heard God's still small voice. He reminded me to focus on Him.  I know it sounds logical but it hit me like a ton of bricks, my focus has been on the wrong things.  As humans we feel the need to concentrate on what we need to do to fix situation or problems.  I've been hearing for the last year & a half in MK that whatever you focus on grows. So why now?  Why did it take me this long to listen?  I mean some of my recent realizations I am sure sound like I am an idiot for not realizing things sooner. But really think about it.  Here is a hypothetical question for you.  Let's say you are given a 60 day lay off notice at work.  As humans what is your first instinct on how to spend the next 60 days?  Most would save all the money you could and try to find another job before those 60 days are up, right? Sound logical & to a certain extent it is exactly what you need to do. HOWEVER! This isn't something have control over. It is something you know you can only do what you can do and when that seems to not be working the weight & stress comes in.  This is a situation that would stress anyone out. All the questions of how am I going to pay my bills, provide for my family, etc... So even though I agree you need do what you can to save money & find another job I think if your main focus is on God things will go better than you ever could imagine.  Yes again I know it sounds like a, well yah duh?,  But have you ever truly done it?  

A close friend of mine is in the process of trying to adopt a adorable little boy from China w/ DS. As I am having this realization today she shares her blog post and here is a few lines from it.

"This week has been rough in the adoption arena. We are encountering delay after delay, and I am a little stressed. I can feel that weight pressing down on my shoulders, and I just feel heavy (not in a way related to the terrible comfort food I’ve been eating this week). I’ve felt this weight before. This is how I feel when I try to hold on to a situation that I can’t control. This is the heaviness I feel when I try to fix a problem that is beyond my ability to fix."

And I am like OMGosh ,me too!!! LOL!! This is my very dearest friend from High School and we used to say we were suppose to be sisters but God knew 1 set of parents couldn't handle both of us. ;-)  And then to realize someone I am close to is having the same feelings that I am having but about a totally different subjects.