The possibilities of 5 months!

I have almost exactly 5 months until Hawaii.  I've been thinking & talking to DH about how much I could accomplish in 5 short months.  Not only could I lose around 40 lbs I could also move up in my career path & become a Director in MK. Directorship means being able to pay off debt & then eventually quit my other job & be home w/ my boys & work my schedule when I want to work. Being able to take DS1 too & pick up from school.  I just thought of something I hadn't before & that is the opportunity to attend field trips.  His preschool has always just happened to have them on my days off. But I bet there will be Monday or Friday field trips and I want to be a part of that, like my Mom was.  I can add that to my "Why".  Focusing on losing weight won't take much more time away if I managed to eat right.  That is a big part of why I am not losing weight.  Sure I am working out now & not eating anymore food than I was before but I am drinking regular pop & that is added calories.  I am terrified that when the time comes to take measurements w/ my trainer again I will not have any change.  I really need to start & stop putting this all off until tomorrow, cause we all know tomorrow never comes.

I have been working really hard on my negative thoughts & I am getting much better at them. So I don't beat myself up as much but still not where I think I am capable of doing things. My new empowering

phrase is Proverbs 31:25

 

This verse inhabits everything I want to be.  I know working to become this women will not be easy but it is something that God will bless my efforts to achieve it.

My personal training sessions are going well except for the fact that I didn't make it back to the gym or for a bike ride this week & my apt isn't until Wednesday this week.  I am going to try to only eat carbs once a day the rest of this week & I think that will help w/ my reset my thinking for eating right.  That way I am not cutting it out but I am bring down the amounts.  I canceled my WW membership because it was $40 a month & I wasn't going to the meetings. I downloaded another app that helps you track points but I don't really like it.  So I downloaded Sparkpeople & that goes by calories & I am thinking about going that route it's database of food is much larger than even the WW app was.

Well I should try to get some sleep I have sick boys in my house: DH, DS1 & DS2 so I have been working hard on being there for all 3 of them. This means been up for the last 2 nights w/ DS2, dealing w/ emotional melt downs from DS1 & then the hubby well we all know that when mean get sick they turn into big babies.

One last thought; today marks 7 successful weeks of no chocolate in any candy form. Oh and no diet pop either.