The last few days from Hell.....

Well, The last few days have been complete Hell. Only because of what I manage to do to myself.  Complete & total self sabotage.  I beat myself up all week about what I wasn't doing & I just sat depressed & did nothing to change it. Had my schedule all set out to get my MK stuff done & booking calls made & got juice to juice during my days off & didn't do any of it!  SO then I just beat myself up. It effects my mood so much, I get depressed & cranky & want to do nothing & my kids & DH feel it and I feel bad. So I made myself go to the gym tonight when I didn't want to & on the way over there God & I had a chat.  I started wondering why these last few days were so terrible then God made me realize that it is because I am close to a break through. The statement the calm before the storm really is backwards in this situation. I am about to break through in so many areas of my life and the devil is fighting against me because he knows how powerful I will be w/o these things weighing me down & holding me back.  I still feel I need a go to phrase of verse that I can chant when I feel frustrated. SO I am on the hunt & I will share but tomorrow is going to be an AWESOME day!