You promise????

 I am feeling the need to do my typical binge before the diet begins. I keep on thinking about things I want to eat before the health bet starts.  We had finished our Costco trip and I dropped off hubby and the kids before heading to the regular grocery store. On my way, I called hubby to ask if he had any special request since this was the last grocery trip before we start buying healthier food. He, not being a crazy dieter like me, said nah I don't need any of it anyways.  I blurted out: Are we really going to do it this time?  He said honey we need too.  To which I replied we've needed to for years but are we really going to stick to this? Are you really going to help me by sticking to this too? He said yes to which I asked if he promised to really help me get thru this.  His response was a reminder I needed but something I am not looking forward too. He responded by saying yes I promise but this means I will be telling you no, refusing to pick up dinner on the way home, or putting food back that you might try to sneak into the cart.  Yes these are things I do and we normally go off our diet by the infamous: Can you just pick something up for dinner on the way home?

Can you just pick up something for dinner have been the last words for every diet I've tried in the last 10 years.  It happens so easy when I am tired and on my way home from work. The kids have homework to do, laundry needs done and we didn't do dishes last night. It starts with just pick up Taco Time that's not to bad, that can be healthy.  Then the next day I will use that as an excuse to either eat out again or maybe to have a treat. With in 48 hrs my diet is gone and because I diet alone for everyone else it is now business as normal.  

These changes coming are not just to how we eat for the rest of our lives but how we live our lives and that scares me.  But I have to be honest that I am just getting ready of the lazy.  I have time to do these things but it is my precious sit on my butt doing nothing time.  I am not sure why I am so possessive of this time that is not producing and not bringing anything positive to my family.  It isn't like sitting watching TV makes me more well rested to take care of my family.  While spending this time meal prepping and exercising instead, might not make me more rested being healthy will help me be able to take better care of my family.