This morning there was no getting up early to get ready, no race jitters, no medal. For the last two years I've spent the morning of Mothers Day on a run. in 2014 it was my first real 5K run The Color Run and last year was The Tinker Bell Half Marathon, my first half. I was signed up for a 10K this morning and my lack or preparation kept me in bed. While I truly had an amazing Mother's Day, it felt like something was missing. I had breakfast in bed, hubby cleaned and cooked for me all day, I got to soak in the bath with one of my Lush bath bombs. But my new running shoes I got for Mother's Day stayed in their box. I read over last May's post and I was in such a great place. I was happy and on my way to healthy and I have now gained 10 lbs. My new normal weight is 185 instead of 175. The first time I saw that on the scale I audibly gasped and now I am just relieved to see it hasn't gone up.
I thought about lacing up my new running shoes and taking them for a spin on my treadmill today. Telling myself I know I'll feel good about it when I do it but I didn't. My Facebook, Strava and Instagram feed were full of people who ran today. Most of them are friends of mine who started running after me and who are doing so well! So where does this leave me? I am actually feeling a little on the positive side. We have our cleanse and hubby is 100% on board. I am 36 freaking years old and it is time for me to get over the fact that others people success isn't the same as mine. My story is 100% mine and someday will inspire someone because heck if she can do this after all that so can I. The nice weather is already here in spurts and the farm close by has it produce market open for the summer. There will be lots of in season fresh local fruits and veggies for the next 4 months. Summer is a time I don't have to stress about the kids school or homework and because of that I feel the freedom to put that focus on myself. Still a little over a month left of school but there is no reason I can't start changing my eating now and then when school is out and eating right is a habit, add in the exercising.
Happy Mother's Day!!
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