I am in shock at the difference my thinking is making. Like I said am having like fitness goals I want to get strong & fit & be able to kick some butt! So for what seems like always when I am watching what I eat it is like if I eat that it will not help me be thin or lose weight and then I get sad thinking about losing weight & how fat I am etc.. Well today apparently was cookie day at my work. And I am not kidding. A small bunch of us have been relocated due to some flooding at our office and one my days off they all decided to bring in cookies. So there were like 6-7 different types of homemade cookies at work today and people were talking about how they ate so many they weren't feeling well etc.. So after lunch I decided to par take & went and got this very large macaroon covered w/ Dark Chocolate. I took a couple small bites and thought to my self. This is not going to help me get strong or run faster. And I threw the rest out. WHAT!?!?!?! Did that really just happen??? But sure enough I didn't have the whole pity party. I didn't get sad about not eating that cookie. I saw it as a step away from my fitness goals. I mean really is this working???? To be honest I haven't started tracking yet but I've been eating pretty good & I have lost some weight already this week. It just seems so odd that for all these years all I can think about is being thin, feeling sexy, being healthy and all these things are very good things & things that are still me end goal. HOWEVER now that I am thinking about my fitness goals and I just have this urge to be a competitor again. I don't even know how I would compete or that I would really compete but I want to be able to keep up w/ DH on bike rides. If we do the STP I want to be able to not be slowing us down. I've always had a ton of leg strength so I know I can do well at riding. My BFF & I decided today that we want to redo the Warrior Dash next year but we think we should do the same one so I can compare my runs and have the be equal. So I started thinking about how I need to train to run up hills. And it didn't scare me I didn't think I can't. I know I can but it will take lots of work and training and for some reason I can accept that to build up muscle and stamina takes time. I know that if I am reaching for my goals to be able to kick some butt at athletic things again I will lose weight.
I have almost all of next week off and we are going to work on the office so that it can become our office/gym. Hoping to get our new treadmill next Friday and I got some weights from my Dad. So I need to get it all set up. I am really looking forward to it! Just found out my schedule thru Jan will remain at 9AM start so I can still get up at 7AM and get my work out, shower, breakfast & Noah up for school & our lunches packed all before I need to head to work. 7 isn't that early. DH new schedule starts in a little over a week where he will be leaving the house by 3:00AM. I mean if he can get up at that time to go to work to be the amazing provider he is for our family I can get up a 7 to take care of me and my boys. I can do this. It is worth losing that 1/2 hr of sleep in the morning. I've been packing my breakfast & lunch all week. And we've eaten at home every night this week so far. CRAZINESS!! I honestly don't remember the last time we ate at home this many days in a row. I already have dinner planned for tomorrow and I think I will put a roast in for Sunday and then we will have successfully eaten at home for a whole week! I've know for a long time that eating at home was going to be key to me losing weight but I really need to start tracking the calories I am eating. I also need to get my body bug back on my arm. I want to know how many calories I am burning so can see my deficit. It also helps motivate me to work out.
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