It's no longer a choice

Well what an eventful day I have had in my head. :-)  While doing the Warrior dash this last weekend, as we were climbing up the steep inclines I really didn't want to stop so I used the trick I learned on our hike in Cannon Beach, I needed to focus on my feet. Watch me take just the next step that was all I needed to focus on at that point in time. Since this weekend the desire to be in shape is stronger than ever. Seeing what I accomplished was great but knowing how hard it was & that the athlete inside me could have kicked butt made me want to bring that side out.  I was always referred to as tough and very athletic and man do I miss feeling like that.

Today I changed the name of this blog. It went from the Unhappy Hippo to Focusing on my feet.  This step in its self is a big deal.  It is a positive blog title not something that is calling myself fat.  Today I had a mind shift that its not a choice any more.  Losing weight & getting in shape isn't a choice it is required, just like breathing.  Forever I've said well I don't have the will power to make the right choices, I make bad choices, I used the option of choice as an excuse.  I've been wrong to think this way.  From today forward it is no longer a choice it is the way I will live. I will track & weigh ALL my food is now just a requirement, no opt out button.

I am dare I say excited to start this adventure.  Excited to cook dinner, and I can tell you it's been like a decade since I've been excited to cook. :-)  I am on a mission to find some new recipes and fall in love w/ my new way of eating & exercise.  I am excited to be able to chase after my boys, go on bike rides w/ DH w/o feeling like I need to apologize for being there, to be able to feel fit again and the list goes on and on.  My attitude had changed I love who I am as a friend, Wife & Mother but I know I have so much more to offer to each department if I wasn't being held back by this weight & asthma.  Watch out world cause I am about to become the women God wants me to be and that is pretty AMAZING!!