Weigh in

Well I am not doing well but I am not giving up. So weighing in is at least keeping me honest. 177.8 this morning. Still shopping craigslist for treadmills, hoping to find one soon. I am posting on my iPad so I will have. Longer post when I am on my laptop. 

Weigh In

So my weigh in yesterday was about what I expected. 177.6 so a 2 1/2 lbs.  The one thing I have noticed w/ DH new schedule is I am eating A TON of junk after he goes to bed.  So much going on in my brain lately. Trying to stay focused & get myself back on track. I wanted to drop in and make sure I wasn't letting myself off the hook for my weigh in.

A week of wins & losses

So week two didn't go very well. I've had weight gain and I will report the official gain on weigh in tomorrow.    It wasn't my normal well screw it I am going to eat McDonalds.  But my serving sizes were to big, I ate to much candy, and I didn't track what I ate.  We ate out this week 3 times, Lapalmera for Mexican, Take out teriyaki, red robin for lunch yesterday & then for dinner we ordered in & I ordered a salad & chili cheese baked potato.  So there are my losses.  My Wins for last week was a 20 mile bike ride and a 3 mile hike including allot of uphill & stairs. 20 miles on a bike ride is my best so far!  My Mom wanted to go on a ride so DH pulled DS2 & my niece in a trailer & we all went for a ride my Mom made it 5 miles then asked if she could stay w/ the kids at the park on the trail while we went on. We had to stop for some breathing & I found out if I went just 3 more miles I would have a round trip of 20 so we did it we turned around at 10 and rode the 10 back.  I could have gone further but I was glad we didn't as we got close to the car I got a bad cramp in my thigh. So I am glad we stuck to the 20.  And I was proud of my 20 miles. I went past hills before that I had to stop have an attack & then head back.  The 3 mile hike was yesterday and my legs were still wobbly from my ride. By the time we got down to the beach my legs were shaking independently. Today my calves are super tight & hurt to stretch them out.

No treadmill yet but we did sell my elliptical & it will be picked up tomorrow then we will have room for a treadmill. My BFF, who we spent yesterday with,  runs on a treadmill and is in good shape and she gave me some tips about getting one from craigslist. So now I am wondering if I should keep on looking longer for one on craigslist instead of dropping over $600 after tax for a new one.

It is now officially fall, the weather seems to agree w/ it all the 70 temps have dropped off the forecast and we are now staying in the 50's.  Another reason I am glad I am getting my treadmill. I am not an outside person normally so you give me crappy weather & tell me to go run outside, NOT going to happen. LOL!  With the official fall weather coming in I am getting the itch to knit.  I spent hours on Ravelry.com yesterday looking up patterns I have a baby to knit for too for a shower that is at the end of next month.  I am knitting the boys new beanies.  Then I have to possible craft fair items I want to knit for a craft fair I am participating in in Dec.  I had this whole last week off except for Friday and we got NOTHING done, besides our bike ride.  I mean I had grand plans of accomplishing things but nope nothing. And now we are back to the week DH works. This will be his first week on his new regular hours so he has to leave the house by 3AM at the latest & I don't like the idea of being left at home while it is dark w/o my DH there to keep us safe. This will take some getting used to.  I have a pretty quite house right now & I am finding my self eating to pass the time. I am hoping to make these evenings into knitting girl time.  When DH has to be in bed by 7PM, DS2 by 8PM & DS1 by 9PM and after DS2 goes to bed it is pretty quiet I want to take advantage of this and watch old movies & knit. :-) Then maybe that will keep me from putting food in my mouth.

Passion

Being at home this week so far has not been what I had planned. I had HUGE plans for some more organization & getting planning done.  And yet we did nothing yesterday cause DS1 was home sick and this morning started w/ a trip to the Walk in clinic for DS1.   *SIGH*   I haven't track my food yet & I know I was a little over my calories yesterday.  I told DH that something always happens that makes me have issues week 2 then I quit and I REFUSE to quit this time!!!  One off day isn't going to throw me into a woes me cycle.

I have recently discovered the need for passion.  It may sound strange but I've always had very strong "Why's" for why I do what I want to do. But they've never seemed to be enough and I now know it is because I was lacking passion.  I didn't have that intense burning desire to reach my goal.  I have always wanted to reach my goals, I always have excellent reasons to do the things I want to do. Like lose weight & gain my healthy, succeed at my MK biz so I can be a work at home Mommy, or stick to the budget so we can buy a 2nd house.  Yet I have yet to manage to stick to anything yet. Not due to lack or good reason, want to or need to but a lack of passion.  So how does one attain passion for something you have never enjoyed, like dieting???  It truly started w/ the Warrior Dash w/ me. I found a passion inside me to be in shape. I mean I get excited about it every time I think about it. Even though I know it is coming w/ allot of work, it doesn't bother me.  The thought of it taking me a year to lose all my weight always used to frustrate me because it seemed like such a long time. But the fact that I have a year to get into the best shape of my life & have a rematch w/ the Warrior Dash. Doesn't seem like that much time.  I could always delay the whole losing weight & dieting thing because it was well I know I can lose 5 lbs my first week of trying so I can make up for week I'm skipping now etc.. But that week would never come & I would recite the same excuse over and over and over again. However I know how long it is going to take me to get in shape and I know if you skip two weeks of working out you lose up to something stupid like 20% of all the strength you gained.  So it is important to keep going. Not like weight loss were you can maintain your loss and everything is fine you stop working out and you lose what you've accomplished.

I got some extra passion today.  Let me take a couple steps back. So when I started trying out work out DVD's I had little work out buddies so the youngest calls exercise: eggersizing, it is really cute.  So today we moved my elliptical out into our living room so we could take pictures of it and put it on craigslist and my boys have been using it off and on all day. Especially DS2 keeps on saying look Mommy I eggersizing, you want to try?  Also DH & I have been trying to drink more water & the boys have started hijacking our water cups and bottles and drinking it.  It showed me just how easily they can be influenced for a healthier life style.  I want that for them I want them to stay healthy. I hate it when they are sick, I get ill w/ worry when they are sick. Kids live by example and I want to be that good example for them. I want them to see me get healthy and fit. I want this more than I think I have ever wanted to be thin.

Weigh in....

As you can see on the ticker my weigh in this morning came in at 175 so -5.2 lbs for the week!!! YAY!!! We plan on eating at home all week again except for Friday we are going to go out so that will be my first test of going out to eat and trying not to just eat what ever I would normally order. I think we are going to Olive Garden and what I eat there isn't to bad I will avoid pasta all together.   We are going on a date night tonight & I am planning on having popcorn at the movie but I am still very pleased w/ my results this week & I will track today when I get home from our movie. So goal of last week was eating at home. Success!! This weeks goal will be to tracking everything I eat.  Then next week I will start focusing on working out once we have the treadmill!! SO EXCITED!!!

Weigh in tomorrow

This morning the scale was looking pretty good for my official weight in tomorrow. However today I feel like I am getting DS1 cold.  I am exhausted.  I have eaten a little bit much so dinner will have to be smaller and more veggies & less potatoes.  I have a roast in the crock pot and this is day 7 of eating at home every night!!! That is a Non-scale victory!!  I have almost all of next week off & I am hoping that will help w/ me to stay focused. Then I will have 2 weeks of eating at home down then I can start working out once the treadmill is here & if I haven't been staying w/in my calories make my adjustments to what I am eating at home. But unfortunately today is another lazy day based on everyone here not feeling to well. And this is the last day of DH work week and then next week is his week off. YAY!!

Looking through the fat

Today is a lazy Saturday. I am really in the Disney mood. I want to go back now. LOL!! Our annual passes don't expire until 10/30 and I don't think we will use them again. Our next trip is in March,  24 weeks from today. It seems so far and yet I know that will pass super quickly.  In 24 weeks at 2 lbs a week that is 48 lbs & I have 55 to lose to reach my goal. Do you know how thrilled I would be if I lost 48 lbs!!!

Watching home movies normally sends me into a depression requiring massive quaintness of junk food because seeing how large I am & what everyone else sees makes the obeseness undeniable. And I sit here watching my weight go up w/ each video and yet the normal thoughts that go through my brain are not there. I mean sure I see my self and I think yep need to lose that weight but it isn't like it has always been.  I looked at my self & noticed how pretty my eye and smile are.  I mean double chin and all I noticed something positive about myself. I have not thought positive things about myself was when I had lost 30 lbs and Noah was 15 months old. That was the last time I remembering thinking I looked great in like every picture. I seriously looked at my very over weight self and saw some features that still belong the the healthy fit me I've been before.  It is strange I used to say I don't recognize me anymore but I am there and when I get fit and strong I am going to be able to say look at how far I've come. During our last trip I was about at my highest weight and you could tell it was taking it's toll on me. Every time I notice the camera on me you could see the uncomfort. I would start adjusting clothing, my face or just clear move out of the picture.  I've tried to stay behind the camera for so long now.  I am ready to be in the pictures.  No matter what weight I am I am going to have us get family pictures for Christmas. The last professional family photo session we had was when DS1 was 9 months old & I had gotten down to 155.  I have refused to get one ever since. I am over it! Being in the photos and videos are more important.

I would like to work out tomorrow but I am still treadmillless. I may do Jillian's Yoga again.  I feel the urge to do something. :-) And I think I will start tracking tomorrow. Just because I am not getting my treadmill for another week doesn't mean I should not start my tracking habit.  I have my book & no excuses! :-)

What a difference...

I am in shock at the difference my thinking is making.  Like I said am having like fitness goals I want to  get strong & fit & be able to kick some butt! So for what seems like always when I am watching what I eat it is like if I eat that it will not help me be thin or lose weight and then I get sad thinking about losing weight & how fat I am etc.. Well today apparently was cookie day at my work. And I am not kidding. A small bunch of us have been relocated due to some flooding at our office and one my days off they all decided to bring in cookies. So there were like 6-7 different types of homemade cookies at work today and people were talking about how they ate so many they weren't feeling well etc.. So after lunch I decided to par take & went and got this very large macaroon covered w/ Dark Chocolate. I took a couple small bites and thought to my self. This is not going to help me get strong or run faster. And I threw the rest out.  WHAT!?!?!?!  Did that really just happen??? But sure enough I didn't have the whole pity party. I didn't get sad about not eating that cookie.  I saw it as a step away from my fitness goals.  I mean really is this working????  To be honest I haven't started tracking yet but I've been eating pretty good & I have lost some weight already this week.   It just seems so odd that for all these years all I can think about is being thin, feeling sexy, being healthy and all these things are very good things & things that are still me end goal. HOWEVER now that I am thinking about my fitness goals and I just have this urge to be a competitor again. I don't even know how I would compete or that I would really compete but I want to be able to keep up w/ DH on bike rides. If we do the STP I want to be able to not be slowing us down.  I've always had a ton of leg strength so I know I can do well at riding.  My BFF & I decided today that we want to redo the Warrior Dash next year but we think we should do the same one so I can compare my runs and have the be equal. So I started thinking about how I need to train to run up hills. And it didn't scare me I didn't think I can't. I know I can but it will take lots of work and training and for some reason I can accept that to build up muscle and stamina takes time. I know that if I am reaching for my goals to be able to kick some butt at athletic things again I will lose weight.

I have almost all of next week off and we are going to work on the office so that it can become our office/gym.  Hoping to get our new treadmill next Friday and I got some weights from my Dad. So I need to get it all set up.  I am really looking forward to it! Just found out my schedule thru Jan will remain at 9AM start so I can still get up at 7AM and get my work out, shower, breakfast & Noah up for school & our lunches packed all before I need to head to work. 7 isn't that early. DH new schedule starts in a little over a week where he will be leaving the house by 3:00AM.  I mean if he can get up at that time to go to work to be the amazing provider he is for our family I can get up a 7 to take care of me and my boys. I can do this. It is worth losing that 1/2 hr of sleep in the morning.  I've been packing my breakfast & lunch all week. And we've eaten at home every night this week so far.  CRAZINESS!! I honestly don't remember the last time we ate at home this many days in a row. I already have dinner planned for tomorrow and I think I will put a roast in for Sunday and then we will have successfully eaten at home for a whole week! I've know for a long time that eating at home was going to be key to me losing weight but I really need to start tracking the calories I am eating.  I also need to get my body bug back on my arm. I want to know how many calories I am burning so can see my deficit. It also helps motivate me to work out.

Need a place to work out

I am so ready to feel sexy!!!  I told DH today I want to do the Warrior Dash in our home state next year so that I can compare. Doing it at my works compared to doing it at my best.  You hear people say I'm in the best shape of my life and it wouldn't take much for me to get there. I was in pretty good shape when I hit 130 lbs I had some muscle definition but I want to be REALLY fit.  I am struggling w/ the urge to rejoin a gym. I really want an at home gym but we just don't have room. I need a bench for free weights and a treadmill. I can get all the free weights I want from my Dad. I just need to find a way to get it to fit in my office w/ a treadmill. The treadmill will at least fold up so I could always just turn it into my gym during my work outs and then put it up against the wall when I am not working out. I think I may seriously consider that. maybe do it while DH is at work tomorrow.  I'll take before and after pics if I do it.  I will need to do some research.  :-)  I may be back to blog more tonight but if not tonight tomorrow for sure.

It's no longer a choice

Well what an eventful day I have had in my head. :-)  While doing the Warrior dash this last weekend, as we were climbing up the steep inclines I really didn't want to stop so I used the trick I learned on our hike in Cannon Beach, I needed to focus on my feet. Watch me take just the next step that was all I needed to focus on at that point in time. Since this weekend the desire to be in shape is stronger than ever. Seeing what I accomplished was great but knowing how hard it was & that the athlete inside me could have kicked butt made me want to bring that side out.  I was always referred to as tough and very athletic and man do I miss feeling like that.

Today I changed the name of this blog. It went from the Unhappy Hippo to Focusing on my feet.  This step in its self is a big deal.  It is a positive blog title not something that is calling myself fat.  Today I had a mind shift that its not a choice any more.  Losing weight & getting in shape isn't a choice it is required, just like breathing.  Forever I've said well I don't have the will power to make the right choices, I make bad choices, I used the option of choice as an excuse.  I've been wrong to think this way.  From today forward it is no longer a choice it is the way I will live. I will track & weigh ALL my food is now just a requirement, no opt out button.

I am dare I say excited to start this adventure.  Excited to cook dinner, and I can tell you it's been like a decade since I've been excited to cook. :-)  I am on a mission to find some new recipes and fall in love w/ my new way of eating & exercise.  I am excited to be able to chase after my boys, go on bike rides w/ DH w/o feeling like I need to apologize for being there, to be able to feel fit again and the list goes on and on.  My attitude had changed I love who I am as a friend, Wife & Mother but I know I have so much more to offer to each department if I wasn't being held back by this weight & asthma.  Watch out world cause I am about to become the women God wants me to be and that is pretty AMAZING!!

You have the same body....

This mornings weigh in came in at 180.2.  I've always known in order to lose weight I need to change things and stop quitting.  It just seems so much easier said than done.  On our way down to the Warrior Dash this weekend. We were talking about bodies and how I see people do such amazing things & I could just never do that. My BFF then said: "Yes you can. You have the same body made up of the same muscles they have."  Well I guess that is true.......  I've always wanted to be super fit and before marriage I secretly wanted to be Miss Fitness USA.  I have been making up excuses to justify my lack of trying when she is right. We all have the exact same muscles and so our bodies are capable of doing the same things.  So this morning even though it was a Monday & I say it is bad luck to start a diet on a Monday I started.  Knowing that tracking is the key to my success I am on the hunt tonight to find a new calorie & fitness app.  I have my body bugg but it doesn't cut it for me I need something a little more. So I'll let you know what I find.  I ate well today. May have not stayed w/in my calories but I did turn down the opportunity to pick up dinner to come home and make something instead and that is a start! Still very tired & sore from the warrior dash.  But I know I should work out some how tomorrow. I am on the look out for a treadmill via craigslist and I am going to download the couch to 5K app and start there.  I want this to be the start of the everlasting change.  I want to be able to say I did the Warrior dash & realized I can be who I want to be.  I want to do it next year but in our home state & I want to compare pics from this year and last.

And it sounds like I'll be doing the STP w/ my DH, BFF & her DH next year.  Not sure how I feel about this one yet. My BFF really wants to & says if she is doing it I have to do it.  I have great lower body strength when I am in shape so if I can get that going & my asthma under control we are good to go. I tell you one thing I want to look like a biker not a stuffed sausage on that ride.  But that is a whole 10 months away & I could be not only at weight goal but I want & need to set some fitness goals as well, I think.  I always know what I want to weight but until this last weekend I haven't had many goals that include exercise.  That is something to think about!!!!

I SURVIVED WARRIOR DASH 2013!!

HOLY COW! What a weekend.  But I DID IT!!!  So here is the tale of our Warrior Dash.

I was started getting that I shouldn't do this feeling when we got there. Tons of butterflies and what was I thinking thoughts start racing thru my brain.  I haven't trained for this, what if I can't complete an obstacle, what if, what if, what if...... You get the idea.  So we get there and the place is a mad house. Tons of people live DJ, great atmosphere.  So we get our packets and we still have and hour to wait so we find out we can really go w/ the next wave of people if we want so in line we go.  It was pretty slow at first because of the massive quantities of people. Then we hit it the first of many STEEP hills. I mean they were steeper than our hike hill in cannon beach. I start to panic a little and we have to start walking almost right away cause I can't jog up hill.  Then one of so many falls we stopped counting happened. I fall and can't hardly get up because of  the slippery mud on the hill. Here is a pic of my BFF pulling me along, not sure I could have done this w/o her.

See in the picture we are laughing. We laughed ALLOT!!!  After a set of 3 up and down hills we finally reach our first obstacle and it is the water one.  And to my pleasure we have to wait in line. People along the way were calling it the Warrior Wait because before each & ever obstacle you had a5-15 min wait before you could do it. THANK GOD!! I firmly believe that it was this wait that helped be me able to complete this w/o passing out. I was able to catch my breath & we were always surrounded by people. In this pic my DH & I are still pretty clean except for my leg that was covered from my falls.

As you can see I am a bit red in the face. I was dying already & only at obstacle one. Here is one of me geting into the water after the floating pontoon.

I was really not looking forward to getting in that water. It was over my head & pure mud. LOL!! It went right over my head & up my nose.  The next obstacles consisted of mud mounds, mud slide, run climbing pyramids and walls, OH THE WALLS.  This wall was tall it had 2x2's nailed to it for a spot to put your foot and it was very difficult for me to get up.  The rope was caked in mud and it was slipping out of my hands constantly. I was leaning against the wall & using my leg muscles to push me up on the little 2x2's and I reached the top. here is a picture that our friend too from the bottom looking up.

Well in the attempt to get down my foot slipped & my hands slipped & I fell.  ALL THE WAY DOWN. Didn't land on my feet either. My feet slipped when they hit the ground and I flew out and flat on my stomach I landed. We are talking about a 25 foot drop and it hurt. Knocked all the wind out of me I couldn't breath. The EMT that was on hand had to come over and see me. Once I started breathing again he helped me to pace my breathing and calm down. My BFF & her DH were already down at the bottom but my poor DH was at the top watching the whole thing happen.  He thought for sure I broke something. Praise the Lord I fell in the only place no boards were and was pretty much unharmed. The obstacle right after this one was another wall.  

Here I am at the top wondering how in the heck are we going to get down. I said I think I am going to skip this one.  BFF said she would if she just fell like I did. DH said No Shame in that babe.  But I knew if I skipped it I would regret it and feel like I didn't truly finish. So I did it w/ great help from DH & BFF's DH but I did it! This pic was taken right after we were done w/ the walls! 

After this we only had a couple more to go. And we had some more hills. Well after all the wind was knocked out of me the last hill triggered a full blown asthma attack.  We were able to calm it down pretty quick but still no fun.  So had to take a moment and calm down and slow my breathing down. We didn't jog much but there were so many lines at each obstacle that it took us quite a while to finish. Again I am so thankful for those lines and the crowds preventing us from really being able to run. Cause I really couldn't even if I had wanted to.

I Didn't get pics of us jumping over the fire or anything unfortunately but here are some more of our smiling faces. :-)

And of course our before and after..

After we were done we went to get our free beer, except me I can't stand beer, and some lady stopped me and said I saw you at the wall & you rocked it!  I said you mean the one I fell down and she said but you got up it. So she had seen me on the other side of the steep wall I first fell but then climbed again and got to the top she didn't see me go down. So I told her thank you but I fell the whole way down. And she said but your walking and YOU DID IT!  It made me feel amazing that some stranger stopped to tell me that I should be proud of me. 

So fall, asthma attack and all would I do it again???????????????????????  HECK YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was a blast. We had so much fun. HOWEVER!  I do NOT recommend doing this w/o training first like I did. I wished several times through out the day that I had trained cause I couldn't jog I had no upper body strength when I needed it. It took us way longer than it should have. So if you want to try it I say GO FOR IT. But do the couch to 5K training and do weight training as well. I am the heaviest weight of my life & in the worst shape ever but I finished it.  Now my legs are beat up and scabbed up. I am so sore tonight I am not sure how I am going to get up & to work tomorrow. (I guess since it is now after midnight that would be today not tomorrow) But again I finished w/o any short cuts.  I did it!

Will I become a warrior tomorrow?

Well tomorrow is the big day. We leave her at 8AM for our Warrior dash tomorrow. I am really scared about the 5K part. There is only one obstacle I am worried about & that is the one that requires getting my body out of water onto a floating platoon. Why didn't I prepare more for this? Did I assume I would just back out?  90% of my life everything there was something new I decided I wanted to do. I would sign up, pay for, make plans to do.  The day before I would get so upset about the what if's I wouldn't go. I would use my parents as my excuse as to why I couldn't or I would get sick. This prevented me from having my 17th birthday party.  One of my closest friends, to this day, & I birthdays are hours apart & all during high school we celebrated them together. For our 17th she decided we should go have an adventure Down Town Seattle. Granted I lived in Seattle so I wasn't to excited about the idea but I went along w/ it thinking sure it'll be fun..... Well the more I thought about it the more worried I got. I had seem some crazy stuff down town cause my Dad was a pastor at an outreach in heart of it all and I decided I really didn't want to go.  It was my own birthday party & I opted out.  I never got any presents from anyone that year and no one really said much to me about it. So then I got depressed figuring they had a better time w/o me anyways.  The next time I can remember was our Senior trip. We were going to the Edmonton mall in Canada.  I was so excited!  Planed w/ the rest of the class and then backed out. I didn't go, I said my parents wouldn't let me and that really wasn't the case. Then for wedding my BFF & her husband gave us a River Rafting trip w/ them to Harrison Hot Springs in Canada.  I cried the night before I wanted to back out SO bad!! I was terrified! DH said we couldn't back out & we went. My BFF made fun of me all the way to the river rafting place because I think I was literally shaking. But I LOVED it! My BFF wanted to back out 1/2 way through but once we did it I was so glad we did.  Then DH & I have had multiple opportunities to go on trips other places but because of my fear we never did, until our trip to Boston.  Now tomorrow has a slightly different spin on it. Not only is it something new & the waiver I had to sign has scared the crap out of me, it has the word death on there like 6 times.  I also feel very under prepared physically. I am the largest I've been & haven't worked out in a week. And the working out I've done has been kicking my butt. My asthma is what I am most worried about physically.  The last two times I went on a bike ride w/ DH I had major asthma attacks and both times my legs were not even sore afterwards but my cardiovascular is so bad I am worried I won't be able to breath.  I am bringing the inhaler & plan on using it before we even start to open up my air ways.  I started looking at the over all times posted and the average longest this takes some people is about 1hr & 20mins and I am thinking if I walked fast I could do it in that time. Then I saw some people who took 1hr & 45mins & that made me feel a little better then I saw the last time entry in the Florida one for this year and it was over 7 hrs.  My jaw hit my keyboard.  I thought to myself, If he can do it so can I!

Running........

I've always said I don't run, I have no interest in running, Running is bad for your joints.  So why on earth am I thinking about taking up running????? Something must be wrong w/ my brain.  I keep on looking up 5K's and Disneyland just had there 1/2 marathon & they have a 10K I want to participate in.   But I don't run!  I have exercise induced asthma.  I can't run, can I?? I wish I would have downloaded the couch to 5K app when we first signed up for our Warrior Dash. I am just a little worried about the running. I hopefully will have lots of pics and I pray I come back & think that was hard but do able. I so worried about holding everyone back because I am so NOT in shape & can't run.

Getting nervous..

So the Warrior Dash is next weekend. 6 days away & I still can't run?  I mean I can run but I will pass out.  I keep telling DH I am not running and he laughs and says oh yes you are.  I mean he witnessed the horrible lack of my abilities during our hike a little over a week ago.  I have been doing some exercising w/ Jillian DVD's & my elliptical since we got home I've worked out 4 times and I've been consistently sore so I now I am working something right.  We are doing this w/ my BFF & her DH and my BFF has lost like 70 lbs in the last couple years and found a love for running and my DH somehow went from hating running to being able to go out and do a 5K in about 30-45 mins.  I haven't run since high school and that was only for warm ups in Volley Ball.  Every time someone would see me really run, like sprint, I tried to get talked into joining track but I never wanted to because none of my friends did it. The worse part of running/jogging for me right now is all the body parts that bounce around when I do.  My boobs, my stomach, my double chin, it is so embarrassing.  I am not sure how this is all going to go down. Fingers crossed I don't pass out during the whole thing.  Again I am not worried really about the obstacles it is just getting from one to the next that concerns me.