So if I had stuck to my diet starting when I first walked into WW in January I would be at my goal weight right about now. I was telling DH how I am such a huge self sabotager. It seems that anything that would make me happy I make sure some how some where it doesn't happen. The weight loss thing is the biggest one but there are all sorts of little aspects to my life where I could do something to make my self happy & don't make it a priority so it doesn't happen. Now again like I've said before: I am very blessed & have a wonderful family & life but I am referring to the "me time" aspect. I always put my self aside for any of my boys or family if needed. I am never asked to but I do these things because I know it would be easier on DH if I took the boys for the night so I do etc... I get so confused by my reaction to this whole thing & how I seem to run as fast as I can from weight loss when it starts happening. I have had success in the past & I have seen WW PP work for me very well so why not just run with it instead of away from it. I find myself saying oh it is just to difficult & exhausting to have to diet. The 6 weeks where I almost lost 10 lbs & had lost 5% I had to constantly be thinking about food preparing it what was I going to eat next & it makes me cranky but only because I can't just run out & pick something up. I am not going to lie I think about food constantly when I am not dieting but it is because it brings momentary relaxation.
It is summer & so much easier to eat at home it stays light later & it tis the season for BBQ'n. In the winter I say oh it'll be easier to diet in the summer when there are less Holidays & better fruits & veggies out there. So here we are and another week has almost past & I am still saying I'll start tomorrow. Well guess what? Tomorrow never comes surprise, surprise.
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