Back from Vacation.....

So I had a completely great high last week. My friend at work notices that I've lost weight & told me that even my face looked thinner & how excited she was for me etc... It always feels so great then what do I do my weight out on Friday morning before we left for the Ocean was 165.2 that is a 2 lb gain. :-( Then on vacation I got in allot of activity such as caring DS2 to & from the beach & all around town in a front pack and running from the waves w/ both my boys & 3 of my nieces. But I ate terrible. We ended up at McDonald's twice & I got a whole quarter pounder meal not a kids meal or something that would have been not as bad. I also ate a bunch of candy that I didn't even bring w/  us. I packed up fruit & veggies so I could be good the whole trip but when I got down there I just wanted junk. I've eaten 4 candy bars 1/2 a pint of soy ice cream plus McDonald's twice & a Prime rib dip w/ Fries.  I got home today, Monday afternoon. & went to see the damage on the scale & it says 166.2 & that was before we ordered & I ate a large piece of garlic cheese bread & over 1/2 a small pizza from our favorite local pizza place. I told DH that I just want to give up. I get so frustrated w/ the fact that I've back tracked & have to lose the same pounds over again I just feel well I might as well give up so I don't continue to fail.  By morning I am hoping the scale is back down to 165.2 but I am thinking it will be closer to 166 if not over & then I have to lose almost 3 lbs over again.  He says I am not going to fail & that I just need to get going again. It is so frustrating to have success & know it works & then just not care for a weekend because "I'm on vacation" then have to work twice as hard that next week to try to just get back to where I was.

I am going to try to go to the WW meeting tomorrow night to try to get myself back on track. I can't help still but feel like an Alcoholic talking about needing an AA meeting to keep them from drinking. I haven't gone to a meeting in two weeks because last week was Easter & this week I was at the Ocean.  My last weight in at WW was 164.2  so I am going to have to fight to have any loss for a weigh in by Sunday. I am going to need to lose 2 lbs just to get back down to that weigh in & then I will have had no progress in 3 weeks! I will blog again tomorrow w/ my weigh in & after the meeting.