WEIGH IN on 4/3/2011

So this isn't an official WW weigh in, cause I didn't get there today, but at my house this morning after eating almost all my weekly points yesterday alone I was still down 4. I weighed in at 167 and I am not happy w/ it.  See I am crazy!! My goal is to lose 2 lbs a week and this week I lost 4 lbs so I am technically ahead of the game and yet I can't stop thinking about when I was almost down 6 lbs on Wed.
I have thought about only weighing myself once a week but I can't seem to help it. I weigh my self sometimes several times a day. My Friends say it isn't healthy & I know it isn't accurate to weigh myself like that.  Yet all I care about it seeing the smallest number possible on the scale so I know that on a work day when I get up at 7AM I am going on my days off when I don't get up until around 9 AM.  This is why places like WW have set meetings & weigh in times so it is consistent. SO knowing all this WHY on earth am I upset about my 4 lbs weight loss? Here is where my vicious cycle normally begins. It can either start on a good or bad weigh in. How can it start on a good weigh in you ask, well I think Oh I am doing great I can afford to splurge a little my goal is only 2lbs a week. Then on a bad weigh in where I am not losing or gaining I think well screw it. 

I know I've heard this before but I have to say it is 100% true for me. The  more junk you put into your body the more you body craves the junk. Just yesterday I splurged w/ my weekly points had some sweet & sour chicken & chocolate bar or two. And today I couldn't stop myself we went to Red Robin & I ate a bacon cheese burger 28 P+ (I hate 1/2 of it) & oh yes I had to have fries w/ it another 8 P+ then I ate another chocolate bar, Tortilla chips & cheese, & now just finished off a foot long subway. SO my weekly points were just refreshed today & I think I have used everyone of them.  And as I sit here I want more chocolate so bad & I think well why not. But I am going to resist. Tomorrow I am back to packing my lunch & eating well & I think I need to start dividing up my weekly points so I don't eat them all back to back in two days.

So onto the infamous week 2. In Biggest Loser it is the week where everyone loses the smallest percentage of weight & it is the week I normally give up & quit.