This is the part where I normally quit

I figured out why I can't seem to diet past three weeks. I hit PMS & all I want to do is eat chocolate & greasy food. Then I see the gain on the scale get frustrated & quit.  After a terrible day of eating yesterday today was just as bad & I haven't tracked points at all and tomorrow DH & I are going on a date night to a place that doesn't serve healthy food AT ALL.  I saw my Mom tonight in a more fitting shirt & you can really tell that she has lost those 30 lbs & it kills me that I have only lost 6.8 lbs. Now my Mom has been working at it for months & I've only been going for 3 weeks.  But when people start after me or the same time as I do & they lose more weight it makes me so angry & frustrated.  I know that I know that I know my body likes to average 5lbs a month when I am losing & I would much rather see 8 lbs a month if not more from time to time.

With all this bad eating I did manage to get in some exercising. I walked w/ DS2 to pick up DS1 from Preschool today & it is all down hill on the way there so super easy but on the way home it is all up hill & I am pushing a sit & stand stroller w/ a 18 lbs 10 month old & 41 lbs 4 year old.  I was so out of breath it was ridiculous. I really wanted to reach my 5% goal this week but with the gain I am expecting I don't see how this is going to be possible.  I have been eating chocolate everyday for the last week & I really think if I could cut back on that use for my points & maybe use them on something wiser maybe I could lose the two lbs a week that I want to.  I am determined to make it through this rough patch. I told DH see this is where I quit & he said well then don't. It is habit, it is convenient, its comfortable.  I have another challenge ahead if I make it pass this week that includes Easter on Sunday. We are going on vacation. Weekend after next we are going to the Ocean for 3 nights & this is another prime time that I am always put the diet on hold because I am on vacation & then not get started again afterwards.  I think after the next two weeks this should be a piece of cake, well maybe.