I want this and I don't want to do that!!!!

21 Day Fix Day, Round 1, Day 4- Active recovery day. Pilates....

A couple other things happened today. I may have sent a text to my husband that had a bunch of junk food emoji's and the the sad crying face.  I may have told him I was in mourning for my junk food.  So keep this in mind when I tell you at Target I had talked myself into a bag of kit kat bites.  Knowing that 3 times a week we can swap one of our carb containers for a treat I thought even though kit kats are not really on the list and they may be a little high on the calorie side. I am just going to use my treat for these.  I was putting my stuff down on the counter to check out and with a big sigh and a small stomp of my foot, I put them back. You could say that is a victory but the thought of not eating them still makes me cranky. LOL!

The second thing that happened today was the fact that I am just spent, my kids started school yesterday, new school and Kindergarten for my youngest and he isn't super excited about the whole thing.  Anyways so my youngest has been watching me do my work outs and he has been asking questions like why do you do exercise? I tell him because Mommy is trying to get healthy.  Tonight I really didn't want to work out. I kept stalling and stalling, My kitchen was a mess and I spent all night cleaning it, yes it was really that bad. By the time that was done it was the kids bed time and all that goes along with that. So I told Hubby I am not going to get my work out done today.  DS2 said but why Mommy I said because it is late. His response was that means you don't want to get healthy and trotted his little cute butt upstairs. Yes there was more kicking my feet and another mini temper tantrum and my hubby laughed and I whined all the way up stairs to do my work out.  Again a victory maybe but I am still to cranky about it all to be excited about these victories.

I had to take lots of breaks during the Pilates DVD and I was shaking and every muscle was burning. The last couple days have been full of using muscles I didn't know could be isolated during a work out.

Tomorrow is back to work and the first day I have to go to work after my dropping my kids off at their new school. Up so early and so much to do in the morning. Need to meal prep this weekend!