I need to remind myself..

I have had some big highs and lows this last week, all resulting in over eating. I was feeling very down and frustrated.Last night as I was being cranky about everything I can't seem to accomplish I reminded myself I am a freaking half marathoner! I can and have accomplished amazing things. I can push thru and keep going when everything inmate is telling me to quit. I am capable of so much more than I think I am.  I finished 13.1 miles on my own two feet. The Tinkerbell half seems like forever ago. For weeks afterwards the fact that I completed it would be almost the very first thing I thought about. I still feel like if I could do that I can do anything.  I just need to remind myself of this more often.

I was talking to hubby about how I am a BIG picture person. I can see the end goal so clearly, I can taste it. But when it comes to the daily grind of things I have to do to get to said goal, I freak out and always figure one more day won't make a difference. But as I've said before days turn into weeks.  I sometimes miss how a week used to fee like it lasted FOREVER. When you are a kid, the school year felt super long and summer and Christmas took forever to get here. Now we live in the grown up world were time flies and we never have enough of it.  Before another year has come and gone I need to make the decision and do the daily NEED TO, to get the goal I WANT TO.

Something I am super proud of from this last week is the fact that including today I've been to the gym 3 times and 2 of them were before work on a Monday morning!!  I am not a morning person!

When I tell hubby about goals to get up and work out before work he says I love you and you should but are you going to? And I would respond probably not.  This morning I got up at 5:45AM. I have not been up at that time since we went to Disneyland for the Tinkerbell Half. And the urge to text a quick: I can't make it, I'm sick or something, so I can stay sleeping, was there and it was strong.  But I knew my trainer would be waiting for me and I don't want to make the same mistakes I've made in the past, avoiding work outs and weigh ins and over eating.  It may seem simple to most to get up and get to the gym but I am ridiculously proud of this.  Asked my trainer for some accountability with my eating because I am still struggling there. She will now be checking that at our appointments and I think that will help me because I am not willing to give up my training sessions I have committed to pay for, for the next 3 months so there is no avoiding her and being accountable. The only option is to  be accountable and start eating right.