Running on fumes.....

I feel like I can't catch a break.  You already know about my oldest having the stomach flu the bad week I had a couple weeks ago, see my previous blog post "Murphy's law".  Now at the beginning of this week I started my period, had a sick puppy(taking a trip to the Vet ER), two days ago my youngest woke up with a fever and headache, then my oldest came down with the same thing last night.  It is hard for me to focus on anything with my kids sick. I shut down and go into freak out mode.  I worry about everyone else catching what the person has and to much time missed from work. You put all the sickness on top of the fact that my puppy hasn't slept through the night and likes to get up at 2:30AM, the only good night of sleep I've gotten in the last 3 months was when we went to the hotel for my birthday.  Needless to say I am running on fumes.

There has been allot of extra praying this week for strength.  Knowing I HAD to start my new training program this week,  of course people got sick again.  As stressed as I've been, I've be remembering to lean on God for my strength and claiming Isaiah 40:31 as my verse. I got another new album of worship music; Matt Redman's "Sing like never before". Some of the songs took me back to my youth group days. Just a couple chords in and I could feel my spirit fill up. Keeping my focus on God this crazy this week and I was able to: NOT have a panic attack(super emotional yes, panic attack no), did my two 4 mile training runs, made 4 dinners, on the one day everyone was healthy, and froze 3 of them and call weight watchers and get my log in reset so I can start tracking again.

It never ceases to amazing me how when I truly keep bringing my focus back to God and really not think about all the other things I get so worked up over. All of a sudden find I am able to do them with out stress or any major effort.  I spend so much energy trying to make myself do things, trying to make myself better and I am left with only frustration and more stress.  Last night as I was waiting for my oldest's fever to go down I took out my devotional and as God does with me He used my devotional confirmed the reason I was able to succeed this week.