The other day I was thinking about how frustrated I've been with my slow and or lack there of weight loss and I feel like if i am only losing .5-1lbs a week it really isn't worth the effort or frustration. But then I started thinking and lets say for 1/2 the weeks of the year I only lose .5 and then the other 1/2 I lose 1 lbs. In one year that would be 39 lbs lost. And that is better than where I am right now. Still a ways from my goal and taking way longer than I planned but it is still weight gone. And my average this last month was 1.95 lbs a week. and that included a .4 weight gain one week, So if I really try then I should be able to lose my 60 lbs in 31 weeks. That is just under 8 months & I was already a month in so less than 7 months from now. So hypothetically I could be at goal by January. So basically before my next birthday before our next trip to Disneyland for my Tinkerbell half marathon.
Tonight I ate McDonalds for dinner and had my 2nd swimming lessons. Swim lessons are going ok but I am still struggling w/ the whole actual swimming part. And tonight my BFF says she might end up not doing the triathlon. She really wants to but since her Step Mom passed she is thinking about going on a cruise w/ her Dad and Sister. Her Dad was going on it w/ his wife but now she passed and so they are thinking about going w/ him. But it leaves the Same day as our Sprint Tri. Now we paid $105 for this and there are no refunds but I don't think I'll do it w/o her. But then I think I should do it anyways, if I can get the swimming figured out I know I can do the bike ride & 3 mile run no problem. The swimming is what freaks me out. I also reminded my BFF today while we were talking about booking our hotel room for the warrior dash in Sept that our neighbor and DH's good friend and riding buddy & his wife are coming and she said that he is going to kick our ass. Yes he is in better shape and quite competitive but I think well I don't want that I want to be abel to hold my own. I need to real start doing some upper body training. I found a obstacle course training class near by her on Friday nights at 7PM. I want DH to go w/ me to the first one to check it out. So that will be an interesting date night for sure.
With all my running, swim lessons and now possible obstacle course training. I am feeling very guilty again. My youngest keeps on asking if it's a Mommy day yet. Last week was not a normal schedule because of the holiday and we've been so crazy busy I feel like I haven't spent much time w/ my kiddos. DH & my Mom say in all honestly the hr hour to 45 mins I am using to work out isn't that big of a deal and there is nothing for me to feel guilty about. I started looking at my calendar and like every weekend is full w/ stuff that are not family events they are 5K's, a wedding. Now granted we have a 5K at Long Beach in a couple weeks and we are taking the family w/ us and same w/ the STP I will have the boys at great wolf and they enjoy that allot! So they have a trip in Jun & one in July but at each of these trips either DH or I are doing something not family orientated. So does that make me a bad Mom? I have to remember some things that have been happening while I'm working out. So my boys want to run on the treadmill everyday. And today when I came home from swim lessons both my boys who don't like swimming or swim lessons mind you, asked to go to swim lessons. My youngest asked me if he could go swimming w/ me and my oldest said he wished he had swim lessons. This child cries at swim lessons and panics about them. My kids are wanting to exercise because I am exercising. I told DH that I feel like the time I am putting into working out is making me not get things done around the house because I am still trying to have my lazy time.
So do I continue to take time away from family time for this stuff, should I try to run in the morning before the boys get up? I have a 5 day weekend and my goal is to get all our plans on the calendar, get a meal plan ready, shop for said meal plan and hopefully get a bunch of spring cleaning done. DH is working a funky schedule all week so no extra time w/ him but at least I can maybe get some of the things done that I was stressing about not getting done due to the exercise.
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