Uncomfortable...

I have gotten to the point where I am just uncomfortable in my own skin.  I find it hard to do things I used to.  I just can't take being this big any more.  I told DH that tomorrow I stop eating forever. LOL!! But in all seriousness tomorrow I will take control. I am going to make the choice to choice to eat to live not live to eat. Will I screw up from time to time of course I will. And that is going to be the hard part that is where I normally throw my hands up in the air & say screw it.  But i am going to push forward & understand that it is not going to be a smooth road. This is what the t

true road to success looks like. Mary Kay the key to success is no matter how many times you fall you get back up, She said she had the most bruised up knees in the business.  I am going to take mesurements & new before pics tomorrow. 

Biggest loser posted this on there FB wall today & it is the truth:

It just takes the effort & you will get there!  I am going start blogging more good or bad. I am not sure how to start I feel like I need something drastic like a juice or the 10 day herbal cleanse. Just to break the habit of eating all this junk.  But witch should I do?? I just started back on my antidepressants so I know I can't take the vitamins from advocare because when I do I get WAY to jittery & it makes me have panic attacks. O_O  So then I think I should avoid the cleanse & maybe just do the whole juicing thing for a couple days.  I tried to find a jump start for WW & no real luck. WW has a simply filling plan that they suggest trying when you are stuck so maybe I will try reading up on that. 

I am having all sorts of things came up tonight after I decided that tomorrow was the day. DH ended up sick w/ a fever & when ever any of my family gets sick I end up in a panic that it is going to work it's way thru the whole house & the kids will get sick & I'll have to miss work etc.. So I am in a panic over that which makes me want to self medicate & eat junk food.  Both boys were sick last weekend w/ a fever that lasted only a day & I am hoping that is all he has.  Because of the craziness at home I didn't make it to the grocery store so lack of healthy foods in my home. But I still am determined tomorrow is the day. 

So lots of tracking & lots of focusing on why I want to lose weight.  Along w/ praying & also am making a list I am going to look at every time I want to eat something off diet.

THE LIST:

Reasons that are important to me to lose weight.   being able to move, put my shoes on easily,   having a towel wrap all the way around me, being able to see what I am shaving, be able to play w/ my kids w/o getting winded, catch my DH checking me out again, being able to strut my stuff because I'll know I look good.  

Heres to tomorrow.