10 day cleanse over

So here we are at the end of the cleanse & the only thing I managed to do was eat take the what the box contained & eat like a pig. I have gain weight & again have a new all time high of 173. Not such a good 10 days. I had a had such a great attitude yesterday I was going to blog w/ TW topic: A new attitude. For the first time in forever I had the desire to be athletic not just thin but really wanting to be in shape. I thought that is IT, my mental turn around I've been waiting for!! Then we had a situation arrive last night w/ DS1 and it upset me & stressed me out. This Morning I got up & went for a 20 min bike ride & felt so out of shape! It would take me 4 mins go go around 2 blocks w/ a slight incline. And I was huffing & puffing (so much so I am thinking about going to the walk in clinic to check in my chest cold) so then I get frustrated & mad that it was so hard & think about how I've been working out since March & have nothin to show for it because of the lack of being consistent. So in my stress & feeling stupid I spent the ENTIRE day eating!! And I mean I was eatting the whole time I was at work. Making myself numb for a little bit.