Hedonistic Hunger

"hedonistic hunger" = an urge to eat when the body has no biological need to.

Hedonism is a school of thought which argues that pleasure is the only intrinsic good.^[1] This is often used as a justification for evaluating actions in terms of how much pleasure and how little pain (i.e. suffering) they produce. In very simple terms, a hedonist strives to maximize this net pleasure
So there it is. This is what I have. I eat to make my self feel good aka emotional eating. The name is kinda scary. I would have NEVER thought of it as a Hedonist act when I emotionally eat. 

When I emotionally eat I do get some kind of high from it. It takes away my problems just for a little while until the guilt of what I ate sets in. Then to make the guilt go away I eat a little something more. It is a viscous circle that never ends.

There is also the aspect of social eating for me too. As long as I can remember my Mom, her best friend & I go out to eat & visit once a week. And also in High School our hang out was the local Red Robin where lots of friends from school worked & every Sunday Night after Youth Group we would all head to the DQ for fries & blizzards.  And I came upon this realization about a year ago: I was a blast getting fat.  I know a couple jaws just dropped but it was. As I ate out & hung out, went on dates w/ DH there are wonderful memories connected to all that eating that brought me here to 171 lbs.  When I did lose weight last time & got down to 140 lbs what happened was I got happy & content w/ my weight so I stopped keeping as close of track of what I ate. I maintained for a few months then started eating out more & more again.  Right now I can tell you that last week I ate out 4 out of 7 nights. And that is probably close to average for us. Whether it is picking up a pizza, fast food or a sit down restaurant we don't eat home cooked meals very often.  I am so glad that it is spring & can't wait for summer for corn on the cob & salmon bbq's. It is always easier to eat healthier during the summer because of all the yummy fruits & veggies that are out.

Speaking of veggies. I am thinking I want to try spaghetti squash. I found out how to cook it & I would really like to try it w/ spaghetti sauce. I'll let you all know how that goes when I do try it. This week is a crazy week for me to start trying to stop eating out. DH had a dentist apt for a filling tonight, I have one for a filling tomorrow night & then DH has another dentist apt on Wed night for his normal 6 month cleaning. So two nights out of the week one of us are going to be numb.  Two weeks ago I had another filling & I didn't eat until 10 PM & that isn't good for the metabolism. I may try to eat dinner before the apt tomorrow.