You have the same body....

This mornings weigh in came in at 180.2.  I've always known in order to lose weight I need to change things and stop quitting.  It just seems so much easier said than done.  On our way down to the Warrior Dash this weekend. We were talking about bodies and how I see people do such amazing things & I could just never do that. My BFF then said: "Yes you can. You have the same body made up of the same muscles they have."  Well I guess that is true.......  I've always wanted to be super fit and before marriage I secretly wanted to be Miss Fitness USA.  I have been making up excuses to justify my lack of trying when she is right. We all have the exact same muscles and so our bodies are capable of doing the same things.  So this morning even though it was a Monday & I say it is bad luck to start a diet on a Monday I started.  Knowing that tracking is the key to my success I am on the hunt tonight to find a new calorie & fitness app.  I have my body bugg but it doesn't cut it for me I need something a little more. So I'll let you know what I find.  I ate well today. May have not stayed w/in my calories but I did turn down the opportunity to pick up dinner to come home and make something instead and that is a start! Still very tired & sore from the warrior dash.  But I know I should work out some how tomorrow. I am on the look out for a treadmill via craigslist and I am going to download the couch to 5K app and start there.  I want this to be the start of the everlasting change.  I want to be able to say I did the Warrior dash & realized I can be who I want to be.  I want to do it next year but in our home state & I want to compare pics from this year and last.

And it sounds like I'll be doing the STP w/ my DH, BFF & her DH next year.  Not sure how I feel about this one yet. My BFF really wants to & says if she is doing it I have to do it.  I have great lower body strength when I am in shape so if I can get that going & my asthma under control we are good to go. I tell you one thing I want to look like a biker not a stuffed sausage on that ride.  But that is a whole 10 months away & I could be not only at weight goal but I want & need to set some fitness goals as well, I think.  I always know what I want to weight but until this last weekend I haven't had many goals that include exercise.  That is something to think about!!!!

I SURVIVED WARRIOR DASH 2013!!

HOLY COW! What a weekend.  But I DID IT!!!  So here is the tale of our Warrior Dash.

I was started getting that I shouldn't do this feeling when we got there. Tons of butterflies and what was I thinking thoughts start racing thru my brain.  I haven't trained for this, what if I can't complete an obstacle, what if, what if, what if...... You get the idea.  So we get there and the place is a mad house. Tons of people live DJ, great atmosphere.  So we get our packets and we still have and hour to wait so we find out we can really go w/ the next wave of people if we want so in line we go.  It was pretty slow at first because of the massive quantities of people. Then we hit it the first of many STEEP hills. I mean they were steeper than our hike hill in cannon beach. I start to panic a little and we have to start walking almost right away cause I can't jog up hill.  Then one of so many falls we stopped counting happened. I fall and can't hardly get up because of  the slippery mud on the hill. Here is a pic of my BFF pulling me along, not sure I could have done this w/o her.

See in the picture we are laughing. We laughed ALLOT!!!  After a set of 3 up and down hills we finally reach our first obstacle and it is the water one.  And to my pleasure we have to wait in line. People along the way were calling it the Warrior Wait because before each & ever obstacle you had a5-15 min wait before you could do it. THANK GOD!! I firmly believe that it was this wait that helped be me able to complete this w/o passing out. I was able to catch my breath & we were always surrounded by people. In this pic my DH & I are still pretty clean except for my leg that was covered from my falls.

As you can see I am a bit red in the face. I was dying already & only at obstacle one. Here is one of me geting into the water after the floating pontoon.

I was really not looking forward to getting in that water. It was over my head & pure mud. LOL!! It went right over my head & up my nose.  The next obstacles consisted of mud mounds, mud slide, run climbing pyramids and walls, OH THE WALLS.  This wall was tall it had 2x2's nailed to it for a spot to put your foot and it was very difficult for me to get up.  The rope was caked in mud and it was slipping out of my hands constantly. I was leaning against the wall & using my leg muscles to push me up on the little 2x2's and I reached the top. here is a picture that our friend too from the bottom looking up.

Well in the attempt to get down my foot slipped & my hands slipped & I fell.  ALL THE WAY DOWN. Didn't land on my feet either. My feet slipped when they hit the ground and I flew out and flat on my stomach I landed. We are talking about a 25 foot drop and it hurt. Knocked all the wind out of me I couldn't breath. The EMT that was on hand had to come over and see me. Once I started breathing again he helped me to pace my breathing and calm down. My BFF & her DH were already down at the bottom but my poor DH was at the top watching the whole thing happen.  He thought for sure I broke something. Praise the Lord I fell in the only place no boards were and was pretty much unharmed. The obstacle right after this one was another wall.  

Here I am at the top wondering how in the heck are we going to get down. I said I think I am going to skip this one.  BFF said she would if she just fell like I did. DH said No Shame in that babe.  But I knew if I skipped it I would regret it and feel like I didn't truly finish. So I did it w/ great help from DH & BFF's DH but I did it! This pic was taken right after we were done w/ the walls! 

After this we only had a couple more to go. And we had some more hills. Well after all the wind was knocked out of me the last hill triggered a full blown asthma attack.  We were able to calm it down pretty quick but still no fun.  So had to take a moment and calm down and slow my breathing down. We didn't jog much but there were so many lines at each obstacle that it took us quite a while to finish. Again I am so thankful for those lines and the crowds preventing us from really being able to run. Cause I really couldn't even if I had wanted to.

I Didn't get pics of us jumping over the fire or anything unfortunately but here are some more of our smiling faces. :-)

And of course our before and after..

After we were done we went to get our free beer, except me I can't stand beer, and some lady stopped me and said I saw you at the wall & you rocked it!  I said you mean the one I fell down and she said but you got up it. So she had seen me on the other side of the steep wall I first fell but then climbed again and got to the top she didn't see me go down. So I told her thank you but I fell the whole way down. And she said but your walking and YOU DID IT!  It made me feel amazing that some stranger stopped to tell me that I should be proud of me. 

So fall, asthma attack and all would I do it again???????????????????????  HECK YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was a blast. We had so much fun. HOWEVER!  I do NOT recommend doing this w/o training first like I did. I wished several times through out the day that I had trained cause I couldn't jog I had no upper body strength when I needed it. It took us way longer than it should have. So if you want to try it I say GO FOR IT. But do the couch to 5K training and do weight training as well. I am the heaviest weight of my life & in the worst shape ever but I finished it.  Now my legs are beat up and scabbed up. I am so sore tonight I am not sure how I am going to get up & to work tomorrow. (I guess since it is now after midnight that would be today not tomorrow) But again I finished w/o any short cuts.  I did it!

Will I become a warrior tomorrow?

Well tomorrow is the big day. We leave her at 8AM for our Warrior dash tomorrow. I am really scared about the 5K part. There is only one obstacle I am worried about & that is the one that requires getting my body out of water onto a floating platoon. Why didn't I prepare more for this? Did I assume I would just back out?  90% of my life everything there was something new I decided I wanted to do. I would sign up, pay for, make plans to do.  The day before I would get so upset about the what if's I wouldn't go. I would use my parents as my excuse as to why I couldn't or I would get sick. This prevented me from having my 17th birthday party.  One of my closest friends, to this day, & I birthdays are hours apart & all during high school we celebrated them together. For our 17th she decided we should go have an adventure Down Town Seattle. Granted I lived in Seattle so I wasn't to excited about the idea but I went along w/ it thinking sure it'll be fun..... Well the more I thought about it the more worried I got. I had seem some crazy stuff down town cause my Dad was a pastor at an outreach in heart of it all and I decided I really didn't want to go.  It was my own birthday party & I opted out.  I never got any presents from anyone that year and no one really said much to me about it. So then I got depressed figuring they had a better time w/o me anyways.  The next time I can remember was our Senior trip. We were going to the Edmonton mall in Canada.  I was so excited!  Planed w/ the rest of the class and then backed out. I didn't go, I said my parents wouldn't let me and that really wasn't the case. Then for wedding my BFF & her husband gave us a River Rafting trip w/ them to Harrison Hot Springs in Canada.  I cried the night before I wanted to back out SO bad!! I was terrified! DH said we couldn't back out & we went. My BFF made fun of me all the way to the river rafting place because I think I was literally shaking. But I LOVED it! My BFF wanted to back out 1/2 way through but once we did it I was so glad we did.  Then DH & I have had multiple opportunities to go on trips other places but because of my fear we never did, until our trip to Boston.  Now tomorrow has a slightly different spin on it. Not only is it something new & the waiver I had to sign has scared the crap out of me, it has the word death on there like 6 times.  I also feel very under prepared physically. I am the largest I've been & haven't worked out in a week. And the working out I've done has been kicking my butt. My asthma is what I am most worried about physically.  The last two times I went on a bike ride w/ DH I had major asthma attacks and both times my legs were not even sore afterwards but my cardiovascular is so bad I am worried I won't be able to breath.  I am bringing the inhaler & plan on using it before we even start to open up my air ways.  I started looking at the over all times posted and the average longest this takes some people is about 1hr & 20mins and I am thinking if I walked fast I could do it in that time. Then I saw some people who took 1hr & 45mins & that made me feel a little better then I saw the last time entry in the Florida one for this year and it was over 7 hrs.  My jaw hit my keyboard.  I thought to myself, If he can do it so can I!

Running........

I've always said I don't run, I have no interest in running, Running is bad for your joints.  So why on earth am I thinking about taking up running????? Something must be wrong w/ my brain.  I keep on looking up 5K's and Disneyland just had there 1/2 marathon & they have a 10K I want to participate in.   But I don't run!  I have exercise induced asthma.  I can't run, can I?? I wish I would have downloaded the couch to 5K app when we first signed up for our Warrior Dash. I am just a little worried about the running. I hopefully will have lots of pics and I pray I come back & think that was hard but do able. I so worried about holding everyone back because I am so NOT in shape & can't run.

Getting nervous..

So the Warrior Dash is next weekend. 6 days away & I still can't run?  I mean I can run but I will pass out.  I keep telling DH I am not running and he laughs and says oh yes you are.  I mean he witnessed the horrible lack of my abilities during our hike a little over a week ago.  I have been doing some exercising w/ Jillian DVD's & my elliptical since we got home I've worked out 4 times and I've been consistently sore so I now I am working something right.  We are doing this w/ my BFF & her DH and my BFF has lost like 70 lbs in the last couple years and found a love for running and my DH somehow went from hating running to being able to go out and do a 5K in about 30-45 mins.  I haven't run since high school and that was only for warm ups in Volley Ball.  Every time someone would see me really run, like sprint, I tried to get talked into joining track but I never wanted to because none of my friends did it. The worse part of running/jogging for me right now is all the body parts that bounce around when I do.  My boobs, my stomach, my double chin, it is so embarrassing.  I am not sure how this is all going to go down. Fingers crossed I don't pass out during the whole thing.  Again I am not worried really about the obstacles it is just getting from one to the next that concerns me.

Woke up sore & pissed off....

Yesterday during my 20 mins on the elliptical I could feel my double chin wiggle independently from the rest of my face. :-/  Not a feeling I enjoyed that was also part of the reason I did Yoga yesterday.  So anyways, this morning I woke up sore. O_O  I couldn't believe it. I mean my my whole core was sore my tummy, back, sides.  Holy cow I only did this Yoga DVD for about 15-20 mins of the 30 mins & I woke up sore??????  I had told DH on our trip the main problem w/ me working out alone is I can do weight training & I am not sore. Where when I work w/ a trainer I am always sore I don't know why I am not pushing myself.  But this Yoga DVD kicked my apparently kicked my butt. I also woke up in a bad mood.  I mean stepped on the scale & it rang in at 179, and that really pissed me off.  It's not like I've never seen that number on the scale before but man did it really piss me off this time.  I got up and make myself breakfast had a salad for lunch and then teryaki for dinner. So not great but not bad either. I also put my body bug on around 11AM and by 6PM had a burn of 1800 calories. Granted not where I need to be but not to bad for 7 hrs. I told my Mom about my soreness from my little Yoga experiment and She is going to come over tomorrow morning to do it w/ me.  This is Awesome cause it means 2 things, 1 I have a work out partner & 2 I will have to get up and do it cause she will be here to do it. :-D

Y-O-G-A....Yoga

I mean I always knew I would find yoga difficult I tried it once when I wasn't as large as I am but MAN!  I did my 20 mins on the elliptical this morning & then decided to try my new Jillian Yoga DVD. I couldn't complete it.  It said I was following the beginner person and it was only 30 mins but I swear it was longer than 30 mins and that you can't do that w/o some knowledge of what your are doing.  My boys wanted to do it w/ me so while I was taking breathers they took turns using my mat. It was very cute.  Tomorrow I am not sure what I will do. I have another new Jillian DVD of kickboxing & I think I may put that in. I mean activity is activity.  I really should be wearing my body bug so I can see what kind of calories I am burning.

 I am thinking about ditching pop & chocolate again. I think I need not to ditch diet pop but all pop and see what happens. I have a ton of Crystal Light packages which do have nutra sweet in it as well but I don't crave sweets when I drink those.  I so desperately want to be healthy. I am so done w/ all the issues I am having being this large.  So tired of clothing not fitting me and of my tummy & my boobs sticking out as much as the other does. I have big boobs, always have, and they have always helped make my stomach look smaller but not anymore. Still lots of changes going on and not all of them are figured out. The change does bring on stress and the desire to eat to release the happy hormones in my brain to make the stress go away for just a little bit.