Almost vacation time!

Vacation is less than 2 weeks away and I can not wait to get back to my home away from home: Disneyland!!

Every time vacation is approaching I make plans about how much weight I can and want to lose before we go. I imagine how great I am going to look in pictures and when the time comes I haven't lost the weight.  And it then makes me very self conscious about my appearance in pics and videos.  I am SO looking forward to this trip and I am not going to let any lack of weight loss get in my way! In 2015 I was at Disneyland 3 times. May for the Tinker Bell Half, August just hubby and I for our Anniversary trip and then Oct for our BIG family trip with my little brother.  While each of these trips were great Aug and Oct involved temps over 100 most of the days.  It made for cranky kids and being over heated made me nauseated. And May was all focused on my the half Marathon and recovering from it and it was a short over the weekend trip.  This trip we have our FULL 5 nights in a big two bedroom villa and they are predicting our temps to be in the upper 70's to mid 80's! We won't be back to Disneyland for almost two years because next year we are planing to make our first ever trip to Disney World.  My Mom is then going to try to surprise my Dad with a trip to Hawaii for their 40th Anniversary and Hubby is like lets just take the kids with us and go with them.  Then late 2018 Star Wars land opens at Disneyland and we have to go back to see it.  While talking to Hubby I realized we are talking about the next 4 years of BIG vacations we have planned. I started thinking maybe we need a 4 year life plan.....

Let me tell you a little something about myself you may not know.  I HATE planning for things that take like longer than 6 months to complete.  Anything that is outside of that window frustrates me and makes me angry.  Like paying off debt or losing weight.  While I've realized that both these things are healthier over a longer period of time. I want the instant gratification and get frustrated so quickly when that doesn't happen. I know my year of health for 2016 may seem like a bust but the year isn't over yet.  I have plans for when I return from vacation and I am hoping vacation will give me the rest and energy to keep moving forward. So I am going to go love every second of my vacation and come back with a fresh mind and ready for some BIG picture LONG term changes and goals.  Are you ready?????

Have you ever????

5:45AM the alarm goes off you're tired, not enough sleep last night (as usual) and the last thing I wanted to do was get out of bed.  I hit the snooze button knowing I had no plans this evening and I could work out later.  Then you have this time between when your first alarm has gone off and the second wakes you.  I don't care how far apart these alarms are, 10 mins, 20 mins, 30 mins, in this time frame is when your body goes into the deepest possible sleep you could ever experience.  You're second alarm awakes you from your coma and you feel way more tired than you did with your first alarm went off. But now I have to get up to get my kids out of bed, fed and ready to go to school and counting my minutes until I leave.  The more I think about my normal morning routine the more my hopes for eating healthy start to wain.  As my minutes tick away the idea of caffeine and sugar sounds better and better.  I tell myself I can still work out later and it won't hurt to wait on my diet one more day.  Then I over eat and magically something comes up at that evening to keep me from working out and I think, ok tomorrow for sure.  Have you ever done this? Have you ever written off a whole day moving towards health the second your alarm goes off?  

Why do we do this, I know I am guilty of doing this many mornings.  I heard someone once say just get up and go pee.  That the second her alarm goes off the internal temper tantrum begins and she tells her self just get up and go pee.  Once she is going pee she tells her self ok now just put on your work out clothes on you can still go back to bed. Then she says it is very seldom that she will reach the point of being dressed in her work out clothes and she will still opt for that extra half hour of sleep.  It made me think of my whole focusing on my feet theory and how we need to just take one step at a time on our journey.  Step one just go pee.... 

Nervous and Excited feels the same..

My oldest son is famous for being so excited about something new then when the time comes to actually do it he cause to scared too.  When this happens we tell him all the time: "Nervous and excited feels the same"  Today I didn't get my shopping or meal planning or prep done but I don't want that to be an excuse to not start tomorrow.  I have 35 days until our vacation and my oringial goal was to hit 169 by then this morning I was 180.0.  That is 6.1 lbs lighter than when I was starting. I still have the potential to lose 11 lbs in 35 days following the 21 day fix.  I also want to be successful so I can start sharing this program with people. I think that there are so many programs that can work for so many people through Beachbody.  But results speaks volumes!

Lets talk Shakeology.....

I touched on most of this on my last blog post but I am going to go over it again.  I am the first person that would make a yucky face when someone says protein shake.  I have tried many kinds and brands and I just can't stomach them.   Shakeology is the best tasting one I've ever tried and it did make me nauseated the first time I had it, and the 2nd and the 3rd.  I checked with my coach who told me to try only 3/4 scoop instead of a full scoop and like magic no nausea!  So I drank it every day for 7 days. Then in my normal fashion I stopped everything. Half way through the next week I was sick and actually craving shakeology. O_O    And that is when I realized there must be something to this shakeology thing.  

I plan to document my journey with pictures and maybe even videos.  Fingers crossed, planning on starting tomorrow even with out my meal plan or grocery shopping. I can make this happen!

Pissed off just enough...

Another two weeks has come and gone and I am no closer to health than I was last week.  21 Day Fix take two has not taken place yet. A combination of hectic mornings and just I don't wanna attitude, push my health out yet another two weeks.  The first of the two weeks, I instantly feel down and start stuffing my face. Last weekend I was so frustrated and had typed up a whole other blog post that wasn't pretty. It was basically a bit of a temper tantrum mixed with a pity party. Shall we call it a Tantrum Party.  This second week I started reflecting on the week I did the 21 day fix and how I was enjoying the work outs and how I had gotten to the point that Shakology wasn't making me feel nauseated anymore.  Then the strangest part of it all. I was kind of craving the Shakology.  Don't get my wrong, it is still a low glycemic protein shake but it felt like my body was missing it.  I tried to drink it again one day and got all nauseated again and then started to get a little pissed off. Realizing that I have every tool I need to succeed and I am basically refusing.  I thought about how I get frustrated with my Dad who has type 2 Diabetes when I see him eating to much sugar.  I thought about how frustrated I get when my MIL says "I have bad knees, I can't work out".   One of our friends just lost his Dad a few weeks ago and I said to Hubby; We're not old enough for our friends to be losing their parents yet, are we?  We then discussed how important it is to get healthy and not just us but our whole families.  I reached that point of pissed off where you just start making decisions, You know the "Well then I am going to do THIS!" drastic type of decisions. I realized I really do have all the tools I need with this new program.  I know that the 21 day fix is going to work for me because it is real food, portion control and amazing work out programs that make me feel like I am with my trainer or like I am at a dance party(more on the dance party later)  I called up my friend who is my "beach body coach" and said ok I'm going to sign up as a coach too.  I want to get a discount on my shakology and maybe if I am successful my family will want to give this a try too.

Yep you read that correctly, I am now a beach body coach and I immediately had that oh crap why did I do that feeling.  I have entrepreneur in my blood, I love the idea of being my own boss the most because it provides freedom and flexibility for my family. It is why I joined Mary Kay 3 times. I love Mary Kay the woman, the company and the products and will always use them and am still a personal use consultant. But I have no passion for that as a business anymore. I've tried to restart the Pink Fire by plugging in but it is just not there anymore.  Beach Body uses all the same lingo and rewards like Mary Kay But I can't help but feel skeptical looking at anything else as a business. I believed in Mary Kay so much.  But while belief in something is great but passion in something is how you move mountains.  I go back and forth between you idiot you are still overweight and out of shape why on earth did you sign up, to well you know what maybe this is what I need to stay on track and get healthy and if it is, it's worth it.