Today was birthday party day for our boys. They are born almost exactly 4 years apart, so birthday parties so far are a joint thing. I normally take the photos but my Mom took videos of us singing happy birthday to the boys while they blew out their candles. And there I was in the corner of the video. In one of my precious Disney 2XL shirts that my brain told me just days ago I didn't want to lose too much weight because they won't fit anymore.
After a day of putting on two parties my body hurts, my feet hurt and I am utterly spent. My body is not healthy, my body can't seem to handle simple tasks anymore. Whether it be a day of cleaning, grocery shopping or putting on parties for my boys my body gets angry and it tells me so. A little over a year ago I was only 10 lbs lighter but I was training for my half. And while I didn't lose any weight while training I can see the difference in my body so much now.
Here I am on the cusp of a new chance for change and I am scared to death. I got my 21 Day fix package in the mail and have a friend that is starting it with me on Monday. I belong to a support group on Facebook and I have all day tomorrow, with no plans except to prepare for Monday. Let me repeat I am terrified. I know that this brings change and even though I know it is change for the better it is still change and I don't like change. But I am slipping further and further into unhealthy ways, gaining weight and my highest weight keeps on going up slowly but surly. My current path is well worn, well known, dependable but this path leads to type 2 diabetes, more blood pressure medication, acid reflux causing scaring of my esophagus, more body aches & pains, depression, anxiety, laziness and I am sure there are more negatives of bad health I haven't even seen yet like sleep apnea and/or high cholesterol. The new path is overgrown, just starting will take hard work and the further in you get it doesn't get easier. This new path comes with good health,
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