Tuesday, January 19, 2016

1st Weigh in, 1st training session and UGHH!!!!

I am way behind in my blog post.  First things first: my first weigh in.  I have been avoiding the scale at home because it has to much power in my life. If the scale goes up I have a bad day and I eat and then sometimes even when the scale goes down I eat figuring hey I am not doing to bad I can splurge a little.  I really had no idea going into this weigh in what I was going to get.  I wore the same clothing for my initial weigh in and I was down 3.2 lbs!!! YAY!! I was hoping for 3 so 3.2 is great.

The very next day was my first training session with my new trainer.  I like her style, so far.  Lots of free weight and balance stuff.  She had me do these sumo squats and press up with a kettle bell and that worked my legs so much.  Alone with balancing on a boesu while doing reverse flys. My form was spot on, which I kind of pride myself in.  When my Dad trained me he was such a stickler for form and I really learned how to use the muscle he told me to use to do each exercise. It is very simple for me if someone says you should feel this in your shoulders not your arms. I can very easily make sure I am only using my shoulders. She said she thinks I have really good muscle memory and that we'll get back to where I left on pretty quick.  Next week I just meet with her on Thursday again and then the following week we'll start meeting on twice a week.

Now for the UGH!!!!  After my great weigh in I was doing really well until yesterday.  Yesterday I found my self feeling the need for some junk foods. I was craving chips and salsa and chocolate. I don't know if I am PMSing or if it was all the talk about getting ready to sell our house and move or purely the fact that I've been sick for the last few days. But I felt the NEED to eat.  Now I know just as well as you do I didn't NEED to eat but I couldn't get past it. I talked to hubby about it and felt it was better to take the points hit and get it out of my system.  So I ate chips and salsa and it was amazing.  But that also lead to a couple extra little Dark chocolate Dove promises.  Then today I was to be back on track, right back at it, none of this I am a failure crap just pick up where you left off and keep moving forward. We had quite the plans for today and they were to go up to the pass about an hour and half away and going sliding for my nieces birthday.  Breakfast was Starbucks and I packed snacks for the kids but really didn't pack anything for myself.  After a day of sledding and building snowmen I was starving by the time we left.  On the way home we stopped at a McDonald's so my youngest boy could use the bathroom and he wanted a Happy meal.  To be more accurate he wanted fries and the toy. They don't eat anything from McDonald's.  So I figured I'd eat his cheese burger.  Which ok that isn't to bad but then I ordered fry to go with it.   We came home and were just beat and we kind of sat around until 6PM and realized we hadn't even thought about dinner yet. So we ordered pizza.  I only ate one piece of pizza but still I have not been eating well for the last two days! Weigh in is the day after tomorrow and I am just not sure I can correct what I've done in the last two days.


My house has been full of sickness for what feels like months. Just one thing after another after another. Right now we have some horrible bug started with hubby then to me and I was hoping that it was just something the kids had a few weeks ago that maybe we got worse but today proved me to be wrong. Both my boys came down with this thing and I am still not over it yet either it is just hanging on.  Hubby is doing much better and that is because he can get sleep. He sent me to be early one day and that was amazing but after getting up at 6AM today and spending the day outside I realized how much I am not over this thing yet. I felt knocked for a loop.  And I have already had to deal with my youngest waking up crying twice and the oldest is even not sleeping well. Because hubby has to get up so early for work and isn't a night person, I always take the night shift and then if need be call into work, which is a whole other stress we won't talk about.

Tomorrow is another day to get it right.  I can't go back and I shouldn't dwell on what happened just need to plan better and make better choices from here on out.

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