High School was before I needed medication for my depression or anxiety, before I started emotional eating, before I gained all my weight. For the last 3 weeks I have been depression and anxiety FREE!! I feel 100% like the real me, and I haven't felt that way in quite a while. For years, dare I say over a decade, there have been glimpses of me but my depression and anxiety has kept her at bay. I don't sit around worrying and obsessing. Just a little over a month ago if I was sitting around to much I would fall into the trap of starting to think to much and start digging myself into the depths of depression. I've been on medication off and on for years and even with that it never seemed to go completely away. It helped and made my quality of life way better but it still wasn't the 100% the me that hubby fell in love with all those years ago. And he noticed it the most cause while out in public or with friends I could bring myself to the surface but underneath there was always the struggle. My "normal" was living in a constant state of fear, and worry. And it has been 100% GONE for 3 whole weeks!!!
What did I do different you maybe asking yourself. That is the greatest part of all......absolutely NOTHING!! No new medication or upped dosage, no new routine, no new exercise, stress in my life didn't all of a sudden disappear. For years I've been on meds, tried avoiding certain foods, exercising all these things they say help with anxiety and depression and I never saw results like I have had for the last few weeks. This is a 100% God thing. I don't know how or why but after years of prayer that God would take away these debilitating issues He finally did. I am giving all the glory to God because there is no other explanation for it.
I've even had no weight loss results from the cleanse phase of the 24 day challenge. And I am eating the right foods but I might be over eating the allowed foods. In the past 7 days of dieting w/o results would have thrown me into a downward spiral. I would have been cranky this whole week and that hasn't happened either. I am feeling optimistic about it all. Taking it in a realizing ok I really do need to track and just can't do it with the simply filling plan where I just eat the safe foods, I find myself snacking all day long on them. So time to get back to tracking and the Points Plus system with WW. I am going to continue with the vitamin supplements of the 24 day challenge but going back to the WW food plan. I know it works so might as well go back to it and keep moving forward. I don't have that urge to go on a major binge, I don't have the urge to just mope around. I am excited to finally start going to the gym on a regular basis and can't wait to get an exercise routine going.
So onward we go, into new work out plans and back to Points Plus!!
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