Monday, July 24, 2017

Stressed to the MAX!

Towards the end of last week I was in a great place. I had just about finished week two of Insanity Max 30 and had seen the scale move so dramatically I felt like finally!!!  In a matter of two weeks I managed to lose months of progress I gained 6.5 lbs and 3 inches.  IN TWO WEEKS!! It made me so mad that all my hard work that I struggle for is so easily lost. But after only 9 days of Insanity Max 30 I was down 6.3 lbs and 2.5 inches were gone again. So thank goodness for muscle memory and I am sure some of the loss was water weight but still it felt amazing to see the scale move that much. I have never lost that much weight in less than 2 weeks!

Then the weekend came I had friday off and a special date and overnight get away with the hubby so I ate really good all day and splurged on dinner and dessert. Then the next day we went to hubby's families river lot and I even packed a salad and fruit.  For dinner we did have pizza but I wasn't concerned I only ate 2 pieces and I would normally have 4. Sunday wasn't great and today was awful!  I am so stressed with the upcoming changes and PMS that I caved, I was weak and I caved and turned to food. I ate so much and now I have the guilt that comes with it and I am dreading the scale tomorrow. I get so angry at myself because I know what to do and how to do it and yet I can still get hung up on stress.  So I am back to being pissed off just enough that I hope it is enough to push me to better myself.

Thursday, July 6, 2017

Maxing Out

I have been trying to figure out what step to take next. With all the change that has been going on and change that is coming I feel fully maxed out.  You know that feeling when you think you just can't take anything else on and then 10 more things fall into your lap?  That is where I am right now.

Since Shaun week I've been struggling to stick to any work out. I tried 21 Day Fix Extreme and enjoyed it for the week I did it but I lost interest pretty quickly.  I miss the way Shaun T talks during get entire work out. LOL!  But I really missed weight lifting during Shaun week. So I did a bunch of research and had made up my mind that I was going to focus on Beachbodys program Body Beast which is all about body building.  I think started remembering how frustrated I've been about not losing weight and I know gaining muscle will burn fat but it takes longer and I will probably see the scale not more much.  So while I want to gain muscle mass I decided I need something to burn some fat first.  I decided on a program that scares me and says it is for Advanced level but there is a modifier.  I have chose to do Shaun T's Insanity Max 30.  It is a 60 day program and only 30 mins a day, only 5 days a week. And I will still build muscle because they do body weight exercises to build muscle but I won't be gaining a bunch of muscle.

60 days is a long time!  I have managed to stick to the 21 day fix only 2 entire times and that was a month and a half apart. While I still did the exercises constantly I didn't follow the meal plan meaning my progress stayed still and I just maintained. The crazy thing is with everything else that is changing in my life I am like bring on more change LOL!! I mean might as well deal with it all at once right? So on Monday I start on my 60 day journey through Insanity. I am going to work on my meal plans.  I have quite the process I've started and I may share it here once it is all done but it is a little on the crazy side. I am getting very detailed into my planning because on top of job change, schedule changes & exercise program change, we are also changing our budget up ALLOT!!  So we are basically choosing to be broke for the next two years to get us to a really good place financially. This means a stricter budget and most of our over spending is to food. My goal is to figure out how much each meal cost and so when I am planning our grocery list I can literally know ok this one is going to cost us about $20 and this one $15 etc... This means I should be able to meal plan along budgeting as well. See I told you a little on the crazy side ;-)

Maxing out is going to be my life for the next 60 days with this program, budgets, changes, work. And I think doing this program will help me get through it all and see some results I've been looking for.