Hello again Hello......

Here I am at a new all time weight high, 178.2!!!  Can you believe it??? I am to the point where my wedding ring isn't fitting anymore. I have to take it off at night cause I swell up & it hurts. All my clothes are to tight I had to go buy some size 18 jeans.   I can't seem to stop stuffing food in my face.  I am not sure what to do.  I am lacking motivation of any kind.  My sweet doggie Petunia will only be with me for another week or so. We are having to put her down & I just don't know how to handle it.  I had to put my training sessions on hold again due to DS1 swimming lessons.  And DH is probably going to be doing the triathlon in Sept. So he will need to pick up his training for that.  I am still in a place where I find it selfish to do stuff for me. Just thought I would give an update. My Mom & I were going to work on our weight loss together & that lasted all of a week I lost my 5 lbs & now I am up a little over 6 lbs.  So lost.......